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Food out of control.. oh no

Monday, November 12, 2012

Well it was a bad food day. It started going wrong when I exercised hard before breakfast. I only meant to do a ten minute light workout and it turned into 50 minutes hard. I came in feeling low blood sugar and then I did not eat enough or a balance of foods. Then I found myself out of the house at a doctor's office and again with low sugar with nothing in my purse. The rest of the day staggered along food wise and I ended up grazing from this afternoon until now on sugars and carbs instead of eating proper meals. A normal person could look at today and say well, it was an off day but I'll get back to normal tomorrow. I am not normal though. This could well be a trigger for a binge and it is a scary thought. As a diabetic I cannot binge. I need to consider how this happened.

Have I been controlling my food too much? Thoughts have been going through my head of restrictive food plans. Tomorrow, three meals and two snacks. Ten minutes exercise before meals ONLY. I will plan it all in the morning, log it and breath. Drink all my water. Right now I'm going to check my blood sugars. I did this afternoon and was at 7 which is fine after eating. Still, I'm scared. Spark people is sooo good for me. No dieting. It is so bad for me to be around people who have severely restrictive food plans and I have been. I start believing I am eating too much or questioning the amount of fiber etc that I have learned to eat. I have to trust Spark People.. who have been sending little messages saying I am not eating enough the past while for the amount of exercising I have been doing. Ah... weight loss... not today. No. Find the balance again first.

Ah... I thought this week would be a good one. DH is away for a while and I am supposed to be writing. But of course there have been appointments for DD and me... I am waiting for a repair person to book coming so worried every time I leave the house... and my mind started creating this idea of doing something just a little drastic to push myself into one-der-land... surprise DH when he gets home. Sigh. I am and always will be a compulsive eater. Danger Will Robinson, Danger! It is pretty amazing that I am sitting here admitting to a terrible food day, my fears etc. I could just justify it all and try and get away with it. But for me there have to be consequences to "going off plan" before something bad happens. The consequence is having to plan and making it a very "normal" meal plan tomorrow. Check my blood sugars before and after each meal. Having to eat at set times. No excuses. My life depends on it. Funny too that this morning I felt so content. Well, the food monster lurks and waits for it's opportunities... just when we put down our guard.

I know lots of you out there will not understand this blog. Trust me... I am at this moment not sane. These are behaviours I recognize all too well. Long time since I have felt this way though. Feeling a little noxious now... darn. Yup... time to check the blood sugars. Sleep it off and apologize to my body for the damage I have done it.
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1CRAZYDOG 11/13/2012 6:28PM

    NORAS_PAT did a wonderful job laying out solutions! I too am a diabetic and do everything on her list!

I definitely have to say that #4, planning out what you're going to eat is extremely helpful, as she explains, because then you're not having to THINK of what to eat in the heat of the moment in a hungry state!

I plan out my menu for a week, and do big batch cooking, too, so I have what I need to prepare the weekly menu. When time is short, I hit the freezer for a meal that I've put away.

Hope you're feeling better. HUGS!

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POPSY190 11/13/2012 1:26AM

    My husband is insulin dependent and I can only endorse what Pat in Maine suggests, especially carrying the glucose tablets. His specialist also approved of his adjusting his insulin intake according to what he was eating/exercising, rather than the other way round. You are remarkable for what you have and are achieving - many go into denial and won't take responsibility for themselves. Stay strong! emoticon

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SHIRLEYX 11/13/2012 12:52AM

    I understand where you are coming from. Breath deep and hang in there.
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NORASPAT 11/12/2012 11:27PM

    OH BOY, you sure are stressing with this.

Instead of planning food.

Plan your strategy
Make yourself some safeguard rules.
I also get those annoying messages saying i am not eating enough . Every time they do that i get worried too. I have upped my calories and that has upped my weight. i wish i knew exactly how much i need I have tried to figure it out but I am using a pedometer, That helps me to know I was moving a lot.

SUGGESTED RULES I DO FOLLOW, I too am diabetic.

1. DO NOT BURN CALORIES ON AN EMPTY STOMACH ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE DIABETIC AND SLEPT WELL.

2. REPLENISH YOUR BODY WITH GOOD CARBS AND PROTEIN AND MEASURE.

3. ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS CARRY A RESCUE CONTAINER OF GLUCOSE PILLS. YES THEY TASTE VERY GOOD BUT THE ARE NOT CANDY THEY ARE RESCUE PILLS. IF I HAVE BLOOD DRAWN I ALWAYS HAVE THEM IN MY PURSE OR POCKET. I AM A DIFFICULT DRAW I LIE DOWN AND AS SOON AS THEY ARE DONE I POP A GLUCOSE PILL AND I AM SET TO GO HOME OR TO SOME PLACE TO EAT SOME OATMEAL.
I KEEP SOME IN THE GLOVE BOX, SOME IN MY PURSE AND SOME IN MY WINTER COAT POCKET. I BUY A BOTTLE OF THEM THEY ARE LARGE BUT THEY FIT IN MY GLUCOSE STRIP CONTAINERS AND THEY ARE FLIP TOP OPEN IF YOU FEEL WEAK YOU CAN GET TO THEM.

4 PLAN WHAT YOU ARE GONG TO EAT THAT WAY YOU DO NOT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT. ONCE YOU FEEL HUNGRY THINKING ABOUT FOOD IS A NIGHTMARE. IF IT IS PLANNED AHEAD YOU ONLY HAVE TO HEAT AND EAT AND THAT TAKES JUST THE MINUTES TO WASH UP THEN EAT. MUCH LESS STRESS THAT WAY.
HUGS PAT IN MAINE. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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