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ok, now I have a better understanding...

Monday, November 12, 2012

Kathy and I went to LR today to see the doctor and have a few more tests done. Got all the preop diet info and am surprisingly ok with all of it. Coke will still be my temptation, but I just know it is a NO NO...

I am now just ready to have the surgery and ready to start....I have had a talk with my kids and explained everything, they won't know about my spleen until he gets in there, so still hoping for the best.
I still haven't told many people exactly whats going on....guess I don't want to be judged just yet....The lap band for me isn't strictly cosmetic, not something I choose. I had 3 doctors choose it for me. I understand why, but I am not willing to open up just yet. I know I will but it doesn't feel right at least not now.

I see my oncologist tomorrow, we will see where my counts are. Everything with me is so complicated...from the leukemia, to the enlarged heart, high blood pressure, chronic fatigue, sleep apnea, severe anxiety & depression, crohnes....I am not a healthy person. I know this. I know I have to get healthy or I won't be here. Not being here is not an option, I have kids and grandkids that are my world

I am so thankful for the true friends that I do have close to me and thankful for the ones on here I am able to vent my fears too, and they can pick me up when I am down!! God truly blessed me there!!!!
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    Thank you so much Anita. My health is BAD, I know I am really SICK. I don't always look sick on the outside but on the insdie I feel it every single second of every single day. Some days are just much easier than others. I am trying so hard, because I want to feel better, I want to live to see my grandkids grow up. I have always been one that doesn't like change and now I am facing the biggest changes of my life...I just have to learn not to fight them!! Prayers are a wonderful and I can never have enough. Praying for you as well...we all need them! I appreciate the support more than you know!!!
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    1859 days ago
    Hang in there. Your heart is definitely in the right place, and I know you are doing your best to turn your health around. Not always an easy task, and it sounds like you have a lot of things stacked against you. But, nourishing your body with healthy food, eating in proper quantities, and getting exercise will improve your health in so many ways and make you feel stronger and empowered to meet those challenges head-on. I know you have it in you, and am saying a prayer right now for you to rise above your circumstances and be empowered with the wisdom and strength you need to make the changes you need to. I hope everything goes well with your doctor visits.

    1859 days ago
    Bless you. Health issues are so challenging. If I understand correctly, the lap band procedure will allow you to lose weight which will then improve your other conditions. This is a good event, right? All the people I know that had the lap band surgery improved their health tremendously. Much good can come of this. I wish you the very best and send healing blessing your way. emoticon emoticon
    1861 days ago
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