Monday, November 12, 2012
Kathy and I went to LR today to see the doctor and have a few more tests done. Got all the preop diet info and am surprisingly ok with all of it. Coke will still be my temptation, but I just know it is a NO NO...
I am now just ready to have the surgery and ready to start....I have had a talk with my kids and explained everything, they won't know about my spleen until he gets in there, so still hoping for the best.
I still haven't told many people exactly whats going on....guess I don't want to be judged just yet....The lap band for me isn't strictly cosmetic, not something I choose. I had 3 doctors choose it for me. I understand why, but I am not willing to open up just yet. I know I will but it doesn't feel right at least not now.
I see my oncologist tomorrow, we will see where my counts are. Everything with me is so complicated...from the leukemia, to the enlarged heart, high blood pressure, chronic fatigue, sleep apnea, severe anxiety & depression, crohnes....I am not a healthy person. I know this. I know I have to get healthy or I won't be here. Not being here is not an option, I have kids and grandkids that are my world
I am so thankful for the true friends that I do have close to me and thankful for the ones on here I am able to vent my fears too, and they can pick me up when I am down!! God truly blessed me there!!!!