Monday, November 12, 2012
I feel like I am going around in circles and I get an insight and lose it and start to do something great and then forget that I wanted to. It has been so long since I felt slender and attractive that I am doubting that I can ever get there. I am not sure what this doubt is all about. I know that I do good things in the world but somehow my mind is focusing on all the doubt these last few days.
I have felt this way before. Sometimes I can hang on and continue moving in the right direction. Other times I lose it. I hope I can continue well enough to get some success and find my motivation.
I just don't know that I will ever get below 200. I am not completely giving up. Just feeling doubtful.