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I quit smoking...

Monday, November 12, 2012

And I am absolutely miserable. I am wearing a patch so I know logically that I am getting some nictotine in my system, but fighting with myself to not actually smoke is difficult. I know I CAN do this, but not 100% sure I WANT to keep trying. I ask myself... is a few extra years of life worth the misery I'm feeling now? I'm not sure?? Ugh... I'm a monster to be around, and I haven't done a bit of work since I've gotten in this morning because my brain is so scattered. Yesterday was my first day as a non-smoker. I spent about 1/2 of it sleeping so I could stay unconscious. The other 1/2 I spent being angry and/or crying. I wish I was a little bit stronger mentally, because I'm surely not feeling it now :(
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    I quit 10 years ago and I used zyban and the patch. The pill really helped. There is a different pill now, not sure what it is called but you could ask your Dr. it could be the difference in quitting or not.

    Good luck.
    1771 days ago
    It might be difficult but you can do it.
    1772 days ago
    DON'T GIVE UP!!! I just lost my Dad to lung cancer. He continued to smoke even after two surgeries that ultimately took his entire left lung. I can't tell you how much I miss him, and how much I would give to have a few more years with him. I know you have a son who wants those extra years with YOU. Hang in there.
    1772 days ago
  • ANNE1123
    IT IS SO WORTH IT!! DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF, keep coming back to your blog and re-read these messages. The first three days are the hardest, but they will pass. Set up a reward for yourself like after a week of not smoking give yourself something fun. Use anything but cigarettes-lotion, Chapstick, coffee, it doesn't matter. Just smell how clean you are for not smoking!! Don't worry about back sliding either. It is really hard to quit and really, really worth it. You can do this, and SP is here for you!!
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    1772 days ago
  • ADELE66
    Oh how I empathise! I smoked for 25 years - the majority of my life in fact! I gave up smoking five years ago and haven't had a cigarette since.

    What can I say? It most definitely IS worth it! Whatever you feel now will pass, it will! Very gradually, you have fewer cravings each day until finally it reaches that manageable point. I still, once in a while think that a cigarette might be nice - but it is a fleeting thought - and doesn't stress me out at all.

    I strongly suggest that you develop strategies that work for you to help you through this worst time. For me, I started knitting (to keep my hands busy!), and my coffee and chewing gum intake temporarily went through the roof! I also used nicotine gum rather than patches, which I found very helpful. Some people find it useful to sip water each time they want to smoke. Find the tools that work for you.

    I thought that this website was helpful: http://smokefree.nhs.uk/ because it has little calculators on it about your habit.

    I can also wholeheartedly recommend Allen Carr's book on stopping smoking - I never believed that reading a book could help you quit - but this one really does work!

    Best of luck - and don't give up giving up!

    1772 days ago
  • NEWNAC304
    I know how hard it is, I quit myself over 10 years ago. I went through the same thing, anger, tears, more anger and more tears. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but it truly is worth it. Hang in there, you can doit!
    1772 days ago
    If you set your mind to quiting smoking you can do it, I used to patch for about 5 weeks in 1996 and it worked have not smoked since , just keep busy find something to replace it sugar free gum helped me and cleaning all the nicotine off everything in the house, I know for me because I have lung issues I would not have lived to be 57 sorry I don't want to scare you I know you will feel better soon

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    1772 days ago
    Hang in there, it gets better. I quit over 3 years ago and feel great.
    1773 days ago
    It won't be easy at first - but definitely worth it! YOU are worth it! So don't give up - do this for yourself, for your health and for your family! Smoking has consequences for everyone in your house! emoticon emoticon
    1773 days ago
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