Sunday, November 11, 2012
I saw this "blog" button clicked it and started typing. I have lost count how many times I have attempted weight loss..if I had to guess i'd say maybe like....48,924? yeah..that many
So this is my story and even though I am well aware that I may be the only one to read this thats okay..i talk to myself all the time anyways so whats the difference between my thoughts, saying them out loud to myself and typing them.. not much of a difference. Anyway I am 24 years old and I know thats not "old" but I feel old.. I feel that besides the fact that i am a self proclaimed "old soul" I actually feel like I'm 34 not 24 ..why? well first of all I have about 100lbs of excess weight that I am carrying around that makes me feel sluggish, no energy and just blahhhh...also my 100 extra pounds stops me from living the life that I feel a 24 year old should be living..such as going out with friends, making new friends, whoring around with guys (thats a joke) not necessarily whoring but not being so shy and self conscious that i feel like I am being made fun of when i guy approaches me which by the way is very few and far between.
I have no idea how to use this website by the way. I know it will slowly come to me but as of right now I'm just clicking what looks interesting and taking it from there. I hope to find the motivation I need from people that are just like me.. Hope to find someone that can relate to me like all my skinny friends can't . Thats possible right? I am going to be openminded i am going to try and be social i am going to try and not be judgmental and above all else I am going to change because I don't know if i'll be able to take anymore of this pity party I've been throwing myself for the last 20+ years.