It's been way WAY too long.
I am sick and tired of not liking what I see in the mirror. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
I made this journey once before. Funny thing is, it didn't seem too difficult. Calories In - Calories Out = Calorie Balance. Need to burn about 3,500 calories to loose 1lb.
Easy enough right? Move more increases Calories Out. Eat healthier lowers Calories in, and helps with having the right fuel to move more.
So why can't I seem to just do it?
I have no idea. I wonder if there is a part of me that thinks it should be easy. If I put in a little effort, I should see big results. Well, I KNOW that part of me is wrong. You only get out of it what you put in. If you put in a half assed effort, I will not see the results I want to see.
I also know it's not an all-or-nothing effort. If I make it all or nothing, I'm setting myself up for failure.
So Rather than "shoulding" on myself, I'm going to take steps in the right direction. All that matters, is doing better than I did yesterday.
Yesterday, I tracked nothing, didn't go anywhere, didn't even think about water.
This week I plan to:
Track everything I eat
Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day.
It's a start. It'll let me know where I'm starting from.
I also know there is an emotional reason I put the weight on again. I will need to do what I need to do to deal with this aspect as well. I might as well start with my mindfulness exercises again. It'll help keep me aware of what's going on around me, and how I'm feeling.