I plan for this to be quick, but you know me... I'm a talker!!
Here's the deal. I won't really get into it, but my life has been HELL lately.
*WARNING GROSS PARAGRAPH - NOT FOR WEAK STOMACHES*
My sister & daughter were walking in a crosswalk from my five-year-old's dance studio to the car and they were hit by a car. Yep. In the cross walk. My daughter didn't have any major physical issues but she was a nutcase about it (as one SHOULD BE). My sister broke her upper arm and fractured it so many times that when they went in for surgery there were tons of bone fragments all over the place. She also had a detached deltoid muscle (the shoulder muscle) but they didn't find that out until they did surgery SIX DAYS LATER!
Needless to say, things changed. That was a month ago yesterday.
It took me until last weekend to realize that I have put every ounce of my being into them and making sure they are recovering that I forgot that in order to take care of them, I need to also center myself and take care of my basic needs. I have to do me in order to support others! Duh, Holly!
Last weekend, I was in Iowa for a cousin's bridal & bachelorette weekend extravaganza. I am NOT a drinker, but when you start drinking at 7pm and you stop at bar close, you end up drinking... a LOT. It was a fun social time, but I am glad it's over!
On the drive back home, I made a commitment to myself. I would not overeat and I would center myself as often as possible.
I know that I struggle with stress, and stopping when things get hecktic to check in (so to speak) with my body, calm down and become rational is something that really has helped me cope.
So, how did I do?
-This week, I have only eaten when I don't feel full. I will NOT get into starvation mode, but I know the difference between being full/satisfied and... not. I am only eating now when I need substance... and only little bits at a time. This is WORKING for me really well!!
-I am centering myself at work and at home whenever I need it. I have gotten up in the middle of talking with someone at home and walked away for 2 minutes just to calm down when things get heated. (Living with 3 other adult women can do that to you). I am really proud that my stress level has gone WAY down this week.
-I have not really excercised much this week, however tomorrow we will be going to a local craft fair --- one of the LARGEST in the whole STATE! It is really exciting, I haven't been to one in my adult life and I am excited to be a tourist (of sorts) in my own town!
-Ultimately, I know that this week has been a success. After being completely off track for a full three weeks (or maybe four), I was up to my HIGHEST EVER weight. How embarrassing! Well, as the week (this current week) came and passed, I weighed in and lost 8.4 pounds! This is NOT normal for me, and I know a lot of it was water weight, but either way it all needed to happen.
Next week, I plan to add more fitness into my routine. I am not going to stress myself out more and binge, but I am starting back from scratch and working my way back into the grind that I was at. I will be taking walks in the mornings and whenever I can. I will be integrating my daughter into my fitness... but the reasoning for that will have to wait for another day.
So, the moral of the story is that it is NEVER too late to start again. Just do it but don't stress over it. Stress relief is a key to weight loss!