Saturday, November 10, 2012
I have been struggling with my weight all my life. I had not been under 200 since July 2010. To be under 200 again is such a blessing! I have not had that struggle with food since the new chapter of my journey began in late August.
On August 25th, I began a really good Bible study that has helped me discover the problem I was having with weight loss and food. I had begun this study at least 3 times before, but never finished it and went back to old ways... This time was very different. "The Lord's Table" has been a God-given tool to help me overcome my struggle with food. The study lasted about 2 months, but it probably took me around 8 weeks. In that time, God has been working in me about a lot of different things.
Speaking to me about:
Turning to food instead of Him.
Turning to food instead of dealing with issues.
God was working in the whole thing. This time was different~ I was really realizing how I was misusing food and placing a wrong emphasis on exercise a little bit too. It is all about focusing on my relationship with Jesus Christ, and from there--that's where the weight will come off. It is through my heart being changed, I can make different choices too. It is not about counting calories, exercising like a maniac, or restricting my diet.
It is about learning to place an emphasis on this: I need to be spending time reading God's Word. The Bible has every tool needed to help me live a righteous life.
I am still struggling with exercising. It is a combination of physical health problems and not going out to even try. The weather is nicer where I am able to go walk some, but still learning to not overdo it. I also am learning how to watch myself, so the weather does not cause pain. Then when it starts up, I can head in before too much damage is done.
I am hoping to gradually start walking more. I started back walking this past week, and my goal has been 1/2 mile. It is a good beginning goal, but I am hoping to break out of my comfort zone. It is more comfortable for me to walk around my apartment complex than break out into the unknown. I do not have to worry about the what if's. What if I do not have the energy to walk back? What if I overdo it and hurt for days? I am hoping to try to break out of those boxes and try to take it to a new level of walking more. Nothing super amazing---just build up in my walking a mile or so each day... Maybe build up to 1.5 miles eventually, which would be amazing for me. That eventually is very far away, but a girl can dream.
My new weight goal may take a while, but it'll come faster since I am trying to walk more like I did early in the study. It is only in the last couple weeks, I have stopped exercising or barely exercising. My goal has been to get out of the obese category. I have found out that I have shrunk and gotten shorter, so it will take longer to get to that place. I have 27 pounds to go. (liked it before when I thought it was 23 pounds) Hopefully in the next 4 weeks (next dr visit), I can say goodbye to 8-10 pounds. Just have to make sure I keep walking.
With eating, there is no set goal. My goal is to make sure I am eating like I know I need to, but that is it. Nothing is off limits as usual unless it has gluten, which makes my body sick. Basically, that's what things look like right now. Very pleased.
God is so good to me and strengthening me. He is teaching me! He is showing me how to live a disciplined life and make sure I am tuning in to Him and listening for His voice through my time with Him.
Possibly, I will remember to update in a couple weeks. ;)