Good Morning Sparkies... :)

I have made a new decision about my health and weight loss program.
I have decided to check out a TOPS meeting in my area. Some ladies in my Al-anon last night suggested that I try TOPS out and I looked up the website and liked what I saw. Apparently it's only $26 per year. I can swing it!

I am so tired of the cycle:
_ scoop up determination to exercise and calorie count, on day one,
_ next day do what I want.

I see myself in the mirror and I absolutely feel saddened by what I see. I have gained 23 pounds since 2005. At the end of 2005 I had lost 120 pounds. I just can't get a grip on this by myself. I NEED to talk about it. Writing on a blog is nice, but I need more support. I admit this to myself How wonderful it would be to NOT have to drive somewhere to get support, but I always end up at the thought "I wish I could just talk to someone about this."

I know baby steps is a big part of change. But when I lost weight in 2004, I hit the gong as hard as I could. I biked 120 miles per week and ate only 1200 calories a day. It took me about a year to lose the weight. Maybe it's not "baby steps" after all. Maybe getting to a TOPS meeting will help me beat the gong hard again.

Today ...my goal this morning is to make snack baggies for good portions during my shopping day with my mother. It's all I can do right now.