Saturday, November 10, 2012
Well, it's that time again. Time for my weight issues to come to the forefront of my mind. They are always there, but never so strongly as in October and April. Why those months you ask? Well, I was in the military for 23 years and those were weigh in and PT months. I dreaded them. I hated the military telling me once again that I wasn't good enough. I always managed to eventually pass so I made it to retirement but I struggled with it every day.
My eating issues are mainly emotional...I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm excited, I eat when I'm stressed. Because I eat all the time, I've buried my ability to listen to when I have real hunger. I am working towards relearning this ability.
I've done every technique in the books to lose weight ( except gastric bypass); diets, hypnosis, acupuncture, therapy, pills, positive reinforcement, and meditation. The weight comes off but I revert to my emotional eating and it comes right back.
I hold high hopes for the SparkPeople program. I need to ditch the excuses and the poor habits or I will eventually kill myself with food.