November 9th 2012
Friday, November 09, 2012
Yesterday was supposed to be my first radiation treatment. It didn't happen because I have a little problem with my breast. It looks like I have a small lymphedema or infection. I am to take antibiotics to make sure it is not an infection, meet with the surgeon Thursday and go back to radiation on the 19th. Looks like my body is not in a hurry to go back to work. pushing the first treatment to the 19th means I should be done by the first week of January.
I am definately learning to let go. The controling personality I have is almost dead now. There is NO control possible in Cancer. Might as well give it up and do what I can instead of trying to control.
Truthfully, I got scared yesterday when I was told to go to the surgery clinic on the 9th floor because it looked like an infection. Scared because that was putting some unknowned in my life again. But today I feel at peace with it. I will go with the flow and do what I can to heal well. If we have to postpone again, so be it. In the meantime, I will rake my leaves, keep the house clean and enjoy being home.