Thursday, November 08, 2012
I have not been feeling so well today, but I'm not so sick that I had to be in bed. Therefore, I made good use of my time and cleaned. My bathroom needed a really good cleaning. I have stuffed things in drawers and cabinets and as a cosmotologist, I have color and wax and hair in crevices that just needed to be cleaned up.
I hated walking in there. I almost will never use a public restroom, but I'd be willing to bet that my bathroom was probably worse. I had every intention of cleaning it every single day, but I just couldn't find the energy. Well, today I had that energy even though I was feeling somewhat under the weather. Now, I can't stop looking at it. So clean!
It doesn't stop there. I went for a 45-minute walk with hubby, and we even did a little jogging. Not ideal for someone who has a knee injury, but I only did what my body would let me do. I did not push it. It was great. I got in a lot of activity today. And all while feeling kinda crappy.
I told myself that I am going to be honest and love myself enough to take care of me this time around. I am not going to focus so much on weight to lose, but energy and self-esteem to gain. Because this journey (this time) is not about what I lose, I will be able to appreciate what I gain so much more.
I never knew I could feel this great about myself. I have always had low self-esteem, but life is too short and gets shorter every year, so I'm wasting no more time feeling bad about myself. I came here to learn to love myself, and I believe that in a few short weeks, I have learned that anything is possible with some hard work.