Thursday, November 08, 2012
So, it seems that even the spark baby steps are too much for me to do consistently just yet, but I'm not letting that get me down. No, 8 glasses of water per day didn't happen consistently yet, but hey, it did more days than not. And on the days I didn't make it, I still drank more water than I did in the past. I didn't get in all the exercise I planned every day, but I got it done three times, anyway. Yeah, it's only ten minutes here and there, but it's ten more than I've been doing, more days than I have been in the past. And I'm tracking daily. I forgot to finish two of the days, but I did finish five of them. I'm moving slowly in the right direction.
Last night I had a dream, and when I woke up I was still thinking about it. I was visited by my cheerleader, a vision of myself at goal weight. She was the personthat I have tried to be toward other people. My goal weight person wasn't trying on new clothes or living a life different than the one I live now; she was jogging in place and gesturing for me to come along. She was so upbeat and happy, not a care in the world. She was asking me to think about the things I like about myself - she said, "Quick, name five things you like about yourself!" I said that to many a person feeling down on themselves. I smiled at the familiarity of the exercise, and answered the question. I dreamed that I was getting up to go run with her. (AHA! Another goal for me that I wouldn't think would happen - I never was able to run for any length of time!)
When I popped out of bed today I was excited to think of her, my cheerleader vision, instead of the creepy comfort dragon I have been giving all my power to. I picture my cheerleader bopping along to music I love, jogging away, feeling awesome about the accomplishment. And I was ready to try, all over again, to achieve my sparkstreak goals. This week will be even better!