Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.

    MANDELOVICH   61,499
60,000-79,999 SparkPoints
Starting over with Inside Out Weight Loss basics

Thursday, November 08, 2012

Today is day 1 of my renewed commitment to Inside Out Weight Loss and self care.

I'm starting again with the first lesson and working my way through each one. And I'm committing to making the work public here on my blog, to add support and accountability! Warning, I'm sharing things that might seem negative, but this is part of the process and I feel sure that as I take these steps, life is going to shift back into the healthy, positive zone!

Lesson 1 is about "away from motivation", the things I'm doing/experiencing that I want out of my life!

For those interested, here are the podcasts I use:

Renee asks great questions to help focus the work:

How do I know I want to change? What behaviors do you want to change?

1. I turn to food when I'm upset, scared, stressed, angry, tired, worried, insecure, lonely.
2. I say horrible things to myself when I'm in a binge cycle.
3. I eat huge quantities of high calorie foods, uncontrollably, until I feel sick.

What unwanted symptoms do I have?

1. I feel sick to my stomach, and have major digestive issues from overeating.
2. I have horrible mood swings depending on where I'm at with my eating/weight.
3. I don't sleep well when I'm in a binge cycle because I'm upset with myself and physically uncomfortable.

What is the effect on your relationships?

1. My husband and I are having lots of marital strain, due to my mood swings, irritability, and impatience.
2. My daughter sees me binging - this is a terrible lesson for her to learn.
3. My daughter and I have conflicts when I'm irritable and impatient during a binge cycle.
4. I'm irritable with my students, my colleagues, my parents, etc. Everyone is affected during the binge periods.

What will my future be like if I continue down this path?

1. I'll continue to struggle with my weight, self-esteem and energy.
2. I'll continue to have digestive issues, that could worsen.
3. My relationships will disappear because people will lose interest in a person with such mood swings.

Steven Covey says "Your habits define you." This is not the life I want to create for myself. I want habits of mind and body that support my best self, my best health, and leads to me being vibrant, loving and well.

I'm so ready to take action now! I'm grabbing hold of the me I want to be and I know it's going to be easy because self care feels so much better over time. Being joyful, loving, confident and healthy feels so much better. It's the path of pleasure!

Renee says, "When you're aligned internally, the universe bows to your intent."

I've spent 42 years out of alignment internally. My words, deeds and actions have not really been in sync. But after a month of very serious life issues surrounding my health and my marriage, I'm so ready to finally experience the bliss of internal alignment.
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KANOE10 11/9/2012 8:04AM

    Being joyful, loving ,confident and healthy is the side of you that will accomplish your goals. It took a health scare for me to stop bingeing.

I know you can do this. Great idea to blog here to deal with your emotions.


Report Inappropriate Comment
LE7_1234 11/8/2012 3:10PM

    At the risk of stating something really obvious... are your mood swings cyclical?

For me, PMS hormone surges bring increased cravings, irritability, exhaustion, and a whole host of fun and exciting symptoms. When I respond to the cravings by eating sugar, carbs, other not-so-good choices, the negative side of the swing is reeeallly deep. But if I'm really paying attention--if I'm doing all the renewing, all the inner work--it can be really different. This past week I noticed what was happening because I started caving... eggs. Since I've been mostly vegan lately, and eggs are not something I normally crave anyway, I figured this was a real lack, not emotional eating. I made a little more time to rest, added some more iron to my diet (molasses, tahini, and, yeah, the eggs). I made time to do the IOWL conflict resolution journey--it's really effective when the PMS emotions strike. And... it ended up being a pretty good week.

Um, long and rambly, I know. My point is that sometimes there are physical reasons for the cravings--and if you treat them right in the first place, the mood swings aren't nearly as bad....

Report Inappropriate Comment
WHITNEYLD 11/8/2012 1:26PM


Report Inappropriate Comment
WILLOWBROOK5 11/8/2012 1:23PM

    Very exciting! Don't worry about sharing negative things. You are so positive, but not because you don't ackowledge things that can be negative. Your attitude is so great because of your focus on moving towards the positives around you. Sometimes we need to deal with and move the negative out of our way to get to the positive.

Report Inappropriate Comment

    The thing that I could relate to the most in what you experience are my mood swings which have seriously affected the relationships in my life. I'm happy that you're sharing this here and looking forward to following along your journey as I too try to start from day 1 in re-building myself (inside out).


Report Inappropriate Comment
MIRRORBALLMOON 11/8/2012 10:33AM

    Powerful stuff, Julie. I admire your willingness to honestly explore some very difficult things in an open way. We support you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
JERZRN 11/8/2012 10:11AM


Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

Log in to post a comment.