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What I really really want

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Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Often during the day a thought floats into my head and straight out again before I can catch it long enough to put it into a blog. It's part of the joy of being middle-aged (along with grey hair, wrinkles, and a tendency to tut at teenagers as if you were never one yourself).

Today I captured one of these fugitive thoughts, for your delectation.

Here it is: the cold I had the other week aside, I don't remember feeling this well in years.

Gone are:

the overwhelming feeling of malaise that used to shackle me to my bed in the morning

the headaches I used to wake up with

the nebulous sinus pain

the cramp I used to get when trying to get to sleep

the indigestion from eating cheese late at night (I haven't got the calories to spare)

the general lassitude that stopped me from walking to the station in the morning and gave me the excuse to get the bus.

All gone!

What's more, my mood is much better, I think. I was feeling grumpy earlier today and it's so long since I felt grumpy that I noticed it. (I'm sure everyone else did too. The cats mentioned it.)

I've no idea whether all this well-being is the result of eating better, or of exercise, or both. Put it like this, I'm not going to give up either of them to see what the effect is.

That's an interesting point too. The binge demon still lurks, and has occasional small successes, but . . . I no longer feel that a binge is worth the candle whereas I used to enjoy a binge. The last time I was buying for a binge I looked at the contents of my basket and thought 'I don't really want to do this' and put nearly all the junk back.

Nearly all. A fruit cake made it home with me. But it wasn't a very big one.

And then, again, I shouldn't expect to rid myself of a 35-year habit in four months.

Let's see if I can do it by Christmas.

Let's make it my Christmas present to me.

I'm worth it.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LYNCHD05 11/8/2012 9:59AM

    Our attitudes change when we do not carry the burden of those extra pounds. Why do we let ourselves go there in the first place when we don't even like it! Great blog as usual and you are always able to point out exactly how we are all feeling too!

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CRYSTALJEM 11/8/2012 9:46AM

    This was a fantastic blog from the first word on! Thank you, I could relate to it so much. Don't sweat the fruit cake... it was fruit afterall. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BESCATS 11/8/2012 9:46AM

    You hit the nail on the head, so to speak !! I can always tell when I am not eating right because I have no energy. I, too, have cravings, and give in to them sometimes. I only wish it helped my migraines, but did not.
Old habits are hard to break, and not all of them are bad.
Great blog, thanks for sharing. emoticon

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    Here's hoping you get your Christmas present!

Make today a great day!

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GIRLINMOTION 11/8/2012 9:45AM

    Yes, you are worth it!

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BRAVELUTE 11/8/2012 9:44AM

    Do you know what a milestone it is to only have the binge demon lurking in the wings instead of being on your shoulder ready to pounce? You are going a super job. You are a fierce demon fighter. Do you have an image to help you remember how fierce you are? (or strong, or mighty)

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GRAMPIAN 11/8/2012 9:36AM


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AMARILYNH 11/8/2012 9:31AM

    Lovely blog!! And YES you are worth it!! Isn't it awesome when doing things that are good for us becomes a habit? Makes life so much better!! emoticon

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STEADFASTNSEE 11/8/2012 9:29AM

  I like this! Thanks!! emoticon

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MIMIDOT 11/8/2012 9:24AM

    Yes! You are worth it AND you can do it!!!! Keep up the good work.

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NIKKIJ55 11/8/2012 9:14AM

    You are doing great and YES! You can do it!! emoticon

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PINKANGEL73 11/8/2012 9:13AM

    Thought #1 - from your blogs I pictured you in your early thirties, maybe a little younger. emoticon

Thought #2 - now you come to mention it, 2 stones gone I am feeling a little more energetic and less stiff. emoticon emoticon

Thought #3 - Well done on putting the junk food back and I don't see anything wrong with having a bit of fruit cake occasionally. Don't be tooo hard on yourself - no need to go to extremes. emoticon

Always making me think, Sparkfriend, and that is my most important tool on this road. Cheers!

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MRSTABER 11/8/2012 9:06AM

    Keep up the good work!

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52114ME 11/8/2012 9:01AM

    Of course you are worth kit.
Keep the smile going!

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HLOCHRIDGE 11/8/2012 8:53AM

    Great blog! :)
Keep up the great work!!!

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PENOWOK 11/8/2012 8:45AM

    You definitely ARE worth it! Some habits die hard because we are comfortable with them, but you have already made significant changes for the better!! Keep up the great work!

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PMRUNNER 11/8/2012 8:43AM

    Nice use of delectation and lassitude! Two words that I rarely encounter, especially in the blog-world. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and comments.

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SKJCHAPMAN 11/8/2012 8:38AM

    I agree, I like the light airy feeling. The 'sadness' is so burdensome. You're doing such a good work for yourself. Thank you for sharing in your entertaining manner.


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BETHHRSN 11/8/2012 8:36AM

  good job! great for everyone to read

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NKOUAMI26 11/8/2012 8:33AM

    Nice thoughts

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DJSHIP46 11/8/2012 8:27AM

    emoticon I'm doing SO much better since I join your challenge... Not only do I love your humor and your pictures, I am more grateful that I know how to adequately express... emoticon

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DWESTERM 11/8/2012 8:07AM

  You'll make it! And you are so worth it. I love my 50s - health issues and all. Keep moving. emoticon

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JANETRIS 11/8/2012 8:05AM

    Wonderful reflections on the changes made. You are worth it! emoticon

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FANCYFREE15 11/8/2012 8:04AM

    You are so much fun! I absolutely adore your blogs! Have a great day! emoticon

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DEBLYNN323 11/8/2012 8:02AM

    Yes, you are worth it! emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 11/8/2012 8:00AM

    Good for you! You gotta love all the little perks and positive side effects that go along with Sparking. That has to be my favorite part.
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PEZMOM1 11/8/2012 7:58AM

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LENIASTY 11/8/2012 7:51AM

    You may be of a certain age but your blogs are full of life and youth - they never fail to bring a smile! You sure are worth it!

Good luck with sticking to your goals and getting there! emoticon

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KANDOLAKER 11/8/2012 7:50AM

    Love your blog and your attitude. Congrats on your successes and being on the right path for you!! All the best - Kathy

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SKYWATCHER6 11/8/2012 7:50AM

  Thanks. I enjoyed your blog!

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GINGERVISTA 11/8/2012 7:50AM

    I emoticon this blog! And you DON'T have to do anything overnight, or even in 3 months or whenever!
Funny re: fruitcake. With all the jokes, I have an old family recipe for white fruitcake that my sis & I have made on Thanksgiving weekend, wrapped in brandy- soaked cheesecloth until Christmas & then shared with friends. Instead of the HUGE, round one given to us years ago, we make the tiny, mini-bread size, which is SO much more doable.

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INGMARIE 11/8/2012 7:49AM

    emoticon woohoo you found it.
Me too feels this way most of the time. It is great.
Keep up the good work. emoticon emoticon

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IRISHGIRL3 11/8/2012 7:32AM

    I love this blog (and always like random/clusters I'd thoughts) congrats and keep up the good habits!

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KNYAGENYA 11/8/2012 7:14AM

    You are doing a great job. I'm proud of you.

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BESSHAILE 11/8/2012 7:12AM

    oooo. Thanks for the post and the point of view.

sometimes I focus so much on "being a good girl" (or failing to be one) that I forget how much fun it is. I've been working on Other Things this year but I believe next year I am going to concentrate on Choosing Healthy for the Fun of it.

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CLAYARTIST 11/8/2012 7:05AM

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DMEYER4 11/8/2012 7:04AM

  great blog

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ANNE007 11/8/2012 6:57AM

    Congratulations on your success! Very nice job!

Your blog is excellent and very fun to read (love the fugitive thought concept!) So often we focus on the pounds when it's so much more important just to feel good!

I had a problem with my hip for a long time, just a dull pain that was impossible to get rid of and it affected me while I was standing, sitting, or walking. After I began lifting it was only a couple weeks before I realized that I no longer had that pain in my hip! I had lived with it for so long I just assumed it was permanent. I had no idea it would disappear! I also had a trainer give me specific exercises for a problem I began having with my knee and **voila**! the problem is gone!

There might be something to this healthy living, eh? emoticon

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SEABREEZE65 11/8/2012 6:53AM

    Believing that YOU are worth it is the only battle there is.

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TEACHING1ST 11/8/2012 6:46AM

    Another fabulous point to ponder---and here's a hoot for you: I 'pictured' you in your late 20's!! It's even better that you're among those of us 'of a certain age,' Chantal! Hooray for lifechanging events and circumstances, and hooray for the New You!


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LEANJEAN6 11/8/2012 6:42AM

    Yes, you ARE worth ity-----Keep up the Healthy Living_Lynda emoticon

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TPETRIE 11/8/2012 6:36AM

  A wonderful blog. You should be very proud of your accomplishments. Congrats. emoticon emoticon

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ONEKIDSMOM 11/8/2012 6:35AM

    Success results from the discipline of remembering "What I really really want"! Well captured! Spark on! emoticon

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LIVEDAILY 11/8/2012 6:17AM

    Yes, you are worth it. Yes, you are feeling better because you are eating better food and exercising. It is amazing the restorative powers our own bodies have if we give them the chance to do so. I think it is an excellent Christmas present to give yourself! It shall be one that keeps on giving!

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THEIS58 11/8/2012 6:07AM

    Great perspective! Way to go.

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KELLYPAQ 11/8/2012 6:06AM

    Very well said. I understand exactly how you feel. I'm glad you captured that fugitive thought!

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CAM2438 11/8/2012 6:05AM

    What a wonderful blog. emoticon emoticon

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DEBBYNATION 11/8/2012 6:01AM

    Yes U R WORTH IT! YAHOO! :)

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DORCAS9 11/8/2012 5:56AM

    Loved the blog. Wonderful to FEEL good! A great inspiration! emoticon Yeah, go for it, the best Christmas present ever!! emoticon emoticon I'll go for it too!! emoticon emoticon

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GABY1948 11/8/2012 5:40AM

    What a wonderful and inspiring blog! I can't thank you enough! I'm at a point (I have slipped a few) that I need all the inspiration I can get so I thank you from the bottom of my heart! emoticon

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