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Wednesday, November 07, 2012

A year ago today I started my journey to a healthier me. On November 6th, 2011 I went to Taco Bell for lunch. I ordered way too many items, ate them all, and when I got home I felt sick, tired, and guilty. I got on the scale to weigh myself and it said 223 pounds. I started crying, told myself enough was enough, that I was going to start taking care of myself, and closed the unhealthy chapter of my life.

At first I felt completely hopeless, like any changes I was going to make would never work. But I stayed persistant anyway in spite of myself.

Here's a bit of my back story:

From the time I was 13 years old I had been riddled with food addiction and disordered eating habits. I struggled with bulimia from 1993 - 2006. It messed up my metabolism, my singing voice, and I alienated people to keep my little secrets. Through a wonderful recovery group called Celebrate Recovery, I came to terms with my addiction, and was able to embrace the fact that "secrets keep me sick". I went through an intense program called a Step Study, TWICE, and I'm still planning on attending a third in the near future.

After I gave birth to my youngest in 2006 I weighed 250 pounds. I yo-yo'd up and down for the years between 2006-2011. I was no longer purging (making myself sick) my food, but I had no idea how to portion control or stop eating as a means to control my life. My weight would fluctuate but I was never successful on keeping the weight off, or losing weight in a healthy manner, so I just quit trying.

In the past 12 months I have been very serious about getting well. I pray for God to see me through each day. I have to actively tell myself I will not operate in my addiction EVERY SINGLE DAY. If I sense myself getting off track, I pray, stay out of the kitchen, and find something else to do until I stop thinking about binging. I have taken up running, which I LOVE, and I am having a great time! I also joined karate and have fun getting fit with my children and my husband who are all in karate as well. I keep track of my calorie intake EVERY DAY too here on SP!

I have lost 70 pounds. I have gone down from a size 20 pant, to a size 8. An XXL shirt, to a M/L. I've gone from huffing and puffing walking a 1/2 mile, to being able to run 10 miles. I am signed up for a half marathon (13.1 miles) in February and I can't wait! I have more energy. More focus. I feel happy and healthy and that's the point of all of this. God wants us to live an abundant life. Not a life filled with depressed feelings and constant sadness.

I'm not done with my healthy lifestyle change. I will NEVER be done. There is no done. I'm just going to take it one day at a time (sometimes one minute at a time) and continue on this path for the rest of my life. Thanks for letting me share. :) HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME!
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  • MISSB8604
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  • LADYJ6942
    Thank you for the story, congrats and good luck as you continue on this path.
    1859 days ago
    Sounds like your doing an awesome job. Keep up the good work, and keep us posted on your progress.
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    What an amazing transformation you've made and ARE making! To work through a food addiction and to get on the healthy and active track is amazing. I congratulate you on taking the right steps "in spite of yourself" (GREAT statement!!!).

    Thank you for being an inspiration! And best wishes on that 1/2 marathon in February!
    1859 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your story. Congrats on your success!! Reading your story only make me believe i can do it too!!
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