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Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Hi Spark Friends,
Sometimes I feel as if it's all too much for me...

Well, first things first, there are lots of good things.
Baby Hila is home and doing good, thanks God!
And my eldest daughter surprised us - totally - by announcing she decided to get married! So the official engagement is going to take place in three days, God willing.

This is wonderful.
But... I'm so so so so exhausted.
The hormones, I guess, are still going wild.
I have no energy. I'm not walking. I'm not eating right.
I do, however, log in here every day. And I'm not quitting.
But I sent an e-mail to my PhD advisor and told her I think about taking some time out. Which is already good, because last week I was thinking about just quitting it all...

So that's how it is. Before even speaking about my home, work, or my mother's condition and my ever growing role as her only child and primary caregiver...
Anyway - I'm here, and it counts, doesn't it?
Even if all I do is to sign in?
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TEALHAWK 11/11/2012 9:16AM

  Yes it counts it shows you are not quitting, you can get through this!

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TEXASRNCEN 11/7/2012 11:15AM

    It does count! I was my parent's primary caregiver during their illness. No one understands that stress and a broken heart are truely heavy burdens until they have done the journey. I know you are exhausted! You need to find a way to put yourself first if only for a few minutes a day. A brief walk to talk to God, to yell if necessary and to cry. You mentioned many things that have high stress ratings all on their own! I can only imagine how they add up when combined. Taking a break where you can sounds like a really good idea! You are here and we are here for you! emoticon

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FP4HLOSER 11/7/2012 9:51AM

    Yes it counts! Sometimes this journey is about other things besides weight loss and eating. If you can, take some time away. Caregiving is stressful. Is there an agency or someone who can take over a couple days a week for you so you can take care of yourself?
I will be praying for you! emoticon

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ALL-IS-AMAZING 11/7/2012 9:10AM

    It does count! Do what you have to do to take care of yourself!

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KTISFOCUSED 11/7/2012 8:32AM

    Yes, it absolutely does count. You have lots of friends on here to support you and it sounds like maybe taking a little time off is a good idea. Congrats on your daughter's marriage, here comes another wedding huh? Hang in there and take care of YOU!

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GOLFGMA 11/7/2012 7:37AM

    Yes, please leave the door open by checking in each day if that is all you can do. I can relate because I have been that caregiver before. My husband is an only child and in 2004 while his mother was in a nursing facility his father had colon cancer and DH was recovering from a stroke and was unable to drive. All of a sudden I was caregiver to all three of them. God will take you through these things. It was a time I had to take each day and do the best I could. That is ALL you can do. You have realized this so please take care of yourself and speak with God daily because He will be there. We will all support you and pray that God will strengthen you for the task. emoticon

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