Hi Spark Friends,
Sometimes I feel as if it's all too much for me...

Well, first things first, there are lots of good things.
Baby Hila is home and doing good, thanks God!
And my eldest daughter surprised us - totally - by announcing she decided to get married! So the official engagement is going to take place in three days, God willing.

This is wonderful.
But... I'm so so so so exhausted.
The hormones, I guess, are still going wild.
I have no energy. I'm not walking. I'm not eating right.
I do, however, log in here every day. And I'm not quitting.
But I sent an e-mail to my PhD advisor and told her I think about taking some time out. Which is already good, because last week I was thinking about just quitting it all...

So that's how it is. Before even speaking about my home, work, or my mother's condition and my ever growing role as her only child and primary caregiver...
Anyway - I'm here, and it counts, doesn't it?
Even if all I do is to sign in?