Tuesday, November 06, 2012
I went shopping today. I found one pair of slacks, one skirt, one pants suit, and two blouses for $60.00 [I love Ross]. But I realized in the fitting room that I had worn some pants that only fit because they have a drawstring at the waist--way too big. I have clothes that fit in my closet--this is the second time I have made a major shopping trip since losing major weight. But somehow I let them hang there for some 'special occasion.'
This evening I was taking the trolley back from an appointment with my eye doctor. An older lady [even older than me] got on and sat in front of me. She was wearing crazy pants, clogs and socks, a jacket and a scarf, plus a hat--nothing matched and all were baggy. I suddenly realized that, except for a quieter color scheme, I didn't look that different than she did.
I guess years of being the fat woman in the corner have taken their toll on my self esteem. I feel a lot better about myself and I have a lot more self-confidence than I did before I started SP. But I still have a way to go. So, the pants that I'm wearing will go in a new charity pile [I already gave away the bag I was working on this morning]. And the saggy bra will go in the trash right now.
I've worked hard to get a better looking body. I deserve to wear clothes that are flattering.