Tuesday, November 06, 2012
we'll I weighed myself and havent lost anything this month so I know when I go to the doctor on monday I will get a fill. I dont know why but everytime i get one it feels like i have failed in some way. Im not sure what is normal as far as how many fills you get before you get to where you want to be. I know most of it is my fault eatting the wrong foods .
I was in for a shock when I dropped rebekah off at the babysitter today. I know kids are out of school because of elections but this was not good. I walk up to the door and 3 kids are sitting on the porch well to not drop to conclusions I was like this is a townhouse they could belong to the other houses. no. 1 was the babysitters son who looks to be 6 ok. then 2 other kids one looks to be 9 the other 6.
I walk into the house and I am greeted by a stumbling little girl and a walking ok little girl thats 2 right off about about 1 year old.
I walk into the living room and there on the couch was a girl about 2.
a little boy sitting on the floor around 7 months
a girl about 4 walking around
and another girl about 2 so lets add this up inside the house was 6 kids Rebekah made 7 under the age of 4 possible 3 years of age. I know this is illegal you can only have 5 under the age of 2 and that is the limit and to add the kids outside we are up to 10 kids in a townhouse. I was shocked one of the questions i asked before i went down there was how many kids do you watch 10 was not the answer. so here i am the delima of what do i do. I am on my way to work I dont have any one last minute i could take her to. so im watching the room counting the kids i know at least 5 times to make sure my numbers are right . All of the kids were well behaved and I know most if not all of them would be gone by 3:30 I got there at 2:00 The room is clean and the kids are clean. no one looks upset so I went ahead and left her. But I tell ya this leaving a child with the babysitter thing is testing me. But what can I do . I have posted and posted for a babysitter to come to the house no one will respond. I put in a application with the local hosptial that has child care connections no one answered me. I have asked around . I work 2nd shift so I can not take her to a day care. I dont know what people in my situation does for childcare. I tried to stay at home and watch other people's kids but didnt get any response to that so Im at a loss really.
I am going to talk with my doctor who does my fills I know some of my problem has to be stress and lack of sleep. she still gets up every 3 hours and eats when the time changed I went to bed sunday at 12:00 and she was up at 3 and did not go back to sleep she took a 20 min nap at 5 and that was it. I then had to go and work 10 hours last night I went to bed around 12:35 up at 3 and then up again at 5 for the day. and now I am working a 10 hour day. I can't lie around all day I still have kids to take care of a house that needs cleaned quilting to do . I dont have a lot of time to eat before work so when I do get to work I feel like all I do is eat.
I am so looking forward to getting some time off next week.