Tuesday, November 06, 2012
I sit here miserable, angry and frustrated.
And it's my own fault.
I was put on antidepressants (I should say anti-anger because I don't get depressed, I bet bitchy) that I fondly call my happy pills.
I normally add them to my weekly pill holders with all my wonderful Herbalife pills.
For some reason I forgot to add them last week and rather than adding them, I (for about the 100th time) tried to do without them. I just don't like being dependant on drugs.
My wonderful sister always yells at me when I do this and says "If you were diabetic or had high blood pressure you wouldn't hesitate taking your meds" and she's right but I always think I can over come what I consider a mental issue rather than a chemical imbalance.
And once again a week later I can't even stand myself.
I already snapped at a fellow Sparker for them voicing their opinion on their own page. An opinion that I am completely opposed to but on medication I would have just passed it by and chalked it up to a difference of how we look at the universe I feel terrible and need to apologize or take the cowards way out and just delete me comment.
I think I will take the adult route and apologize.
Tonight the election will finally be decided so 99% of my anger and frustration will be gone but I better get my pills in me before I start hearing all the bitching or whining from the losing side (I hope that's not me
Honestly at this point I don't care who wins.
My focus is on what I can control and that is loving myself, my family, firends and fellow sparkers. AND taking my pills!!!