Tuesday, November 06, 2012
There's no such thing! Well for me any way...there are no more cheat days for me...the truth is I have cheated myself out of one too many days now and it's way past time for me to get this weight off....as my mom lays in the hospital as I type this recovering from a very serious attack on her body...I am haunted by her voice and her voice is my fuel...she reminded me that if she would have just taken care of her self a long time ago she could have possibly not ended up where she is now....I say possibly because some of what is going on with her is not weight related and even the person in the best of health could have fallen vicitim to some of what is going on... but that doesn't discount the fact that some is related to weight....and as I reflect back over the years I think wow...perhaps if my mom wouldn't have had so many "cheat" days she wouldn't have gotten diabetes and high blood pressure...that then took her down a road of health complications....my mom did well to lose a good amount of weight but she then started to have"cheat days" again and thought it would be okay to "cheat" and it wasn't okay....because she is now suffering from the consequences of her "cheat days" (and some other things as I said) but my focus is on the issues that came from weight....and she asked me to please not end up on the same road...that I can still do it (get the weight off without these health issues)...and and as I examined my life....I realized that if I didn't do something NOW I AM going to end up where she did...b/c I am on the same road just don't have the health issues there though I am heading that way if I don't act NOW...I have had one too many cheat days in my life....I have cheated myself out of health...a day turned to a month a month turned to a year and the many years....and I have only been cheating myself with food....but no more! I have been dead serious about this weight coming O-F-F now and there is no turning back....there isn't any more room on my calender for cheat days....there's no more times to start over or play around...the effects of being overweight and obese in my case are REAL...and it's starring me in the face....and it's past time to stop having Cheat days and create healthy days...exercise days....positive days....my mind is made up period...I have heard my mom's plea loud and clear and it has truly been the thing that "clicked" in my head and it is needs to be done for me and for my children....because if I don't stop cheating myself I am only robbing them as well...my determination will never die again....I will cry all the way to 159lbs...weight will not defeat me....mindless eating will not control me...food will no longer console me...I know we all have a time to die...but I won't cheat myself out of my own life because of a "cheat day"! Blessings to you all...and whatever you do don't cheat yourself!