no fun and games today, just speaking my truth
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
Thank you to all my Spark friends who have stopped by my page and had fun with me the last several days. Unfortunately today, I don't have it in me. I had a horribly emotional evening last night and found myself eating out of anxiety.
This election is weighing heavy on my heart. I tend to avoid political talk at all costs and I will continue to keep my opinions my own in this blog. However, I have seen a lot of ugly come out of people, people that I had esteem for and truly thought were good people. That is not to say that I don't care for those individuals but they have shown me a side of themselves that I did not necessarily see before. The ugly images that have made their way on Facebook. It hurts me to the core. As a black woman growing up with a multicultural upbringing, and being exposed to so many types of people, I didn't think I would personally see the day that I would witness images of lynchings. I saw that yesterday. I am disturbed. And no, it was not my friends who were perpetuating this, but to know that a few of my friends and many of their families will not vote for President Obama because he is pushing some "black agenda" is ignorant, especially since they have benefitted GREATLY (their families in particular) from several of his programs. On the flip side, to hear things like, "My president is black" from many of my friends is unnerving also because it just proves to me that when a black or brown man ISN'T running for president, some of them don't see the value in voting. THis level of ignorance, stupidity, bigotry and all of the above nearly brought my to an anxiety attack yesterday evening. I couldn't find my pills and I found myself snacking on anything I could get my hands on. I even had a bowl of cereal a half hour after eating dinner just because I couldn't stop shaking.
I jsut hope that whomever comes to be my President on January 1, that they open their mind beyond their own personal bubble and find a way to unite this country.