Monday, November 05, 2012
I think one of the things that has made me feel like I am in a stasis and can't move forward is fear of failure.
Losing my job.
Not being able to take care of myself monitarily.
Not being able to take care of myself physically.
Being too tired to do something.
If I don't try, I didn't fail.
If our millage passes tomorrow I'm probably okay, but if it doesn't I'm going to be in a position of possibly losing my job come January.
If I lose my job, I won't have enough money to pay all of my bills.
When I was waiting for my neck surgery, and after the surgery, I fell several times and I had a very hard time doing anything. I fear that I will have something like this happen and I won't recover from it.
If I try to work around the house I might be too tired to get much done and then I will have to face my low stamina issues. I have hypothyroidism, fibromyalgia and possibly lyme disease as well, which all sap my energy and strength.
If I don't try anything I can pretend that everything is fine because I won't have any limitations slapping me in the face.
Unfortunately this doesn't get me anywhere in the long run. I MUST give my issues up to a higher power and I MUST do baby steps to get things done. 5 minutes is more than none!