I am taking one say at a time. Some days are more of a struggle then others, but I will survive. It would be easier if I cold stop loving him, but I cant turn it off that easy, unlike him! We had a huge fight on Tuesday because I called him Monday to come stay with us because I was scared with the storm, and worried about my parents who were on a cruise ih the storm. He told me to "grow a set, it is only wind, go to sleep. So that gave me the answers I needed to move forward with what I need to do. He got mad that I said I was going to file for custody of our kids, and child support. I had to get food stamps to make sure we had enoug food, he had waited three weeks to shopping. I also want to file for a legal seperation. He thinks I will just sit here while he does whatever he wants. He moved in with some one in Ravena, a town North of us. He told me Tuesday that he wasnt coming back, but said yesterday "when I come back, I cant tell what the future will bring". He is playing games and it has to stop!