Sunday, November 04, 2012
i have been working on my weight FOR EVER! My husband can not figure out why, my friends do not see a problem and of course your family loves you for who you are.... which to me, means I have no support. To me (and my doctor) I am 50+ pounds over weight. Now, my goal was never to loose 50 pounds. First to break 200 number, then scooch on down to 180 then 170. I would love to get lower than that even but first things first.
So, here I go again. This time my mother and sister are going to weigh in with me each week while they try and loose weight as well. I am hoping that will make me more motivated either with a challenge or with support. My husband is not supportive of my weight loss journey. He tells me "you have tried that already..." "you are doing it again?" "You are fine the way you are." Then why do I feel so crappy about my weight.
... and if I feel that crappy about my weight, why do I not have the strength to FIX IT???!!! This really is a huge struggle for me emotionally, not to mention physically. When I go for a walk, I feel guilty I am taking time away from my husband. Not my teenage son, he is the only one that will tell me "GO MOM".
So, today is my first weigh in with my sisters and mom. I am hoping that we will be supportive of each other, or challenge each other enough for me to loose some very unwanted pounds.
Wish me luck!!!