I'm back... I wish I was back earlier!
Sunday, November 04, 2012
I kinda took a break from Sparking for about 2 years... I thought I had everything under control. I managed to reach my goal weight of 54kgs back in May 2011. I was super happy and it helped me enjoy the outdoors a lot.
Among the things I did was a lot of hiking. I climbed at least two mountains and one which was the tallest peak in Malaysia, about 4200m! I went on a solo adventure to New Zealand, did some hiking up hills and glaciers, rock climbing, sky-diving and zip-lining. I had the time of my life enjoying my health and fitness.
Here are some photos.
Work also went well. I got a promotion and though work is at times stressful, I enjoy it a lot. Relationship-wise didn't go too well though. I broke up with my boyfriend of earlier this year and it has been difficult to cope with being single again. I became depressed and work became the only thing I have now... I stopped looking after myself... and now, I am back worse than ever. I had gained 12kgs over the course of a year. I hate looking at myself in the mirror now and when things aren't working out at work I just cry.
I decided to come back here and be surrounded by the positive energy of my Spark Buddies again... in hopes that I could get the motivation to pull myself back together. I am still sad... I really loved him but it just didn't work out. I need to be happy again.. and start looking after myself again. I hope I have the strength.