Sunday, November 04, 2012
What does one do on this journey when it feels as if theraphy is needed to focus for a full day and follow through with a committed plan? Well, maybe blogging, putting feelings before this community, evaluating daily behaviors, and moving forward in spite of setbacks.
For the past few days I've wondered around SP and watched some videos of two very committed young ladies who have really remained focused and are losing weight daily. All of this is so inspiring and one wonders if the moon has to be right or if one must do what one says he or she will do. Yes, sometimes I feel as if distractions makes one a liar.
Today is another day to seek perfection. Yes, I said perfection: staying in my calorie range, eating good foods, exercising, posting, and feeling as if I have not let myself down. I don't know about you all, but sometimes I wonder what is behind this inability to follow through. At one point I decided that when it comes to food that I was a spoiled brat who does what one wants to do and is not accountable to anyone. Do I really need a parent to say, "No, don't eat that?" At this age???????
One of the young ladies on the video today mentioned that she previously ate whatever she wanted whenever she wanted it. Well, I've always been critical of my eating, even if it was after I had consumed a bad food. There are so many times when I questioned my behavior. How could one eat and not think about it until after it was consumed. My answer was when the telephone rang I started talking, went into the kitchen and started snacking quietly while I listen. Yes, I would be completely aware of what was happening, but would continue and then feel disappointed. My solution was to take the telephone outside, walk around the property, and complete my exercise routine.
Yes, I use Sparkpeople as part of my theraphy to keep me on track. Maybe now I'll think of myself as a serious patient in therapy with plans to become freed of the excesses that are not needed to become a healthy individual. Who would have thought that one person would have daily access to so many therapists. Yes
Today, I received some wonderful words of encouragement from someone on SP and I'm so thankful. Today, we're moving forward!