Saturday, November 03, 2012
I am so busy with school right now, and really I shouldn't even be here blogging, but I learned some important things last night and want to share.
When I realized how much homework I had to do to keep up with my classes this semester, I took a few moments to estimate how much time each assignment would take and then I put it on my calendar. I put quick meals on my calendar. I put work, commute times, and personal hygiene on my calendar. I made sure to include my personal training sessions on my calendar, as well. And when I was done making sure all of my priorities were logged on my calendar, I saw that I had a 3-week period with no free time whatsoever. Not one minute. I felt so defeated. No time for grocery shopping, laundry, extra workouts, cooking meals, or luxurious baths. Not even time to spend with my mom to celebrate her birthday. (Don't worry - I will make the time!! It's my mom, after all.)
Which is what this is all about, right? Making the time for what's important. Last night I weighed in with my trainer. I was up 8 pounds from when I started at his new gym two months ago. I nearly cried. I was frustrated and angry. And he said that he could understand how angry and frustrated I was since he would feel the same if he was doing everything he was supposed to be doing and still gained. He asked me, "You are doing everything you're supposed to be doing, right?" I value honesty, so I had to admit that I was letting my schedule get the better of me. My food choices have been horrid.
He sat down and looked me in the eye. He reminded me that my health is the most important thing I have and I'm the only one who can control it. He encouraged me to continue to make time for my workouts, but also asked me to make sure I make time to prepare healthy food. He asked me to refocus on what's truly important, and make room in my schedule for those things.
He is right. While my education is important, it means nothing if I am not healthy enough to use it. And if I don't get my eating under control, I'm putting myself in danger. I'm already high-risk for diabetes and heart disease. Why am I pushing my luck?
The other thing I learned is the importance of taking breaks. I forgot I had made plans with friends to have dinner and go to a wine tasting. When I got the reminder that afternoon, my first instinct was to cancel. I had too much to do! But I couldn't bring myself to reschedule AGAIN. So I ignored my homework and went to class slightly unprepared. Guess what? I had a blast, spent the evening laughing, and woke up refreshed and ready to tackle the day. And those moments when I wasn't quite following along in class? Well, there was only one and I just mustered up the courage to state that I wasn't clear on the topic and asked for some guidance. The professor obliged and now I'm right back to where I need to be. I guess it's ok to ask for help, huh?
And during my breaks at school, I wrote up a simple menu that I can easily follow no matter how hectic my days are, and a shopping list. I will ask my husband to do the shopping while I do homework. It's time to stop making excuses and start making time to focus on my health. It's time to lose those 8 pounds and get back on the road to success!