Saturday, November 03, 2012
The problem is inflexibility. And I don't mean yoga poses, I mean my own internal ability to accept change and realign my priorities and self. Through my foot injury since May I have been adapting pretty well. I've been handling the new set backs with my attitude of acting like the person I want to be: positive despite setbacks, encountering each difficulty with a feeling of enthusiastic, OK, time to change the game plan, what will it be?
My last blog described that whole attitude going to shi**. It was all just too much (and I don't even think I mentioned the spider bite in that blog).
But yesterday I started to get my feet underneath myself, and today a little bit more so.
I am realizing that I have a fixed vision of what the 'good, positive, healthy' me is, and I don't divert from it. So unless I'm eating in range, getting cardio, feeling positive, etc--I am not the best me. I am either in that state or trying to get back to that state.
But I woke up today thinking about goals for my day. So my goal can't be 30 minutes of cardio. And maybe it can't be eating in range. But there is a way to take best care of my body, and I started wondering what that would be.
So here it is:
doing my stretching exercises once an hour or so for my herniated disc
icing once and hour
spending time on SP reading inspiring things, even though I can't do them right now
drink a lot of water to detoxify the steroids and other meds I am on for my back and tooth (post root canal pending crowning).
planning my food (both for calories and because I can't eat anything hard or sticky)
doing other good things for myself--sitting in front of the fire, watering the plants as I am able, and writing/doing some research that I needed to do.
SO that looks way different from how I want it to look, but that is my reality right now.
And I can pretend it's not, but that will just make me miserable. What healthy looks like today is different from what it will look like in a month. Be flexible. And tell that negative voice (who is having an easy time with my herniated disc--so easy to be destructive with my thoughts) that I am caring for myself, just like always.
In other great news, the foot surgeon yesterday gave me permission to run, bike, ANYTHING on my foot. He does not want to do surgery to remove the cyst right now, but did give me a steroid injection to reduce the inflammation. He confirmed that I did, in fact, also have a stress fracture.
And the spider bite is healing nicely
And I slept most of the past 2 nights without having to get up in pain (with my back).
And my crowning is in 3 weeks.
So things are shaping up.