So my October was not the complete success that I hoped it would be. I did great for about 3 weeks and then the last week, I fizzled out completely. I hate that I didn't meet my goal because that's the kid of person I used to be, never finish anything, always give up when it's too hard. I guess old habits die hard but that's not who I want the new me to be. But it's not like I've COMPLETELY given up so I can't be too hard on myself.

I also didn't lose any weight at all so that's disappointing also. Still holding strong at good old 170. I remember being so ecstatic to see 179 on the scale this summer. Now seeing that 7 day after day is so frustrating! I think 169 is right around the corner though, now that I'm back on track.

So it's a new month. I kicked things off yesterday with a whole day of healthy eating, staying in my range and a 2 mile run last night. I'm still slow as molasses. I was at like 14 and a half minutes per mile but whatever! Tomorrow I'm going to try to do the whole 5 k which I've only done one other time. I'm starting to think about actually signing up for a race. But I'm so self-conscious!! And I'm not good at doing things by myself, especially new situations so I don't know if I've got the nerve. But I'd love to be able to say I did it. And there's tons of races happening in the area. We'll see.

So this month. My new goals are:

-track religiously
-follow my skinny rules plan
-exercise...................
.... Err................ I'm really not sure what to do here. I don't want to put so much pressure on myself but I still want to TRY to get in 30 minutes a day, or at least something everyday.
-try not to spaz out till thanksgiving at least.

Onwards and....err...downwards!