Last night, I sort of had a binge, but I also had a victory.
I went to my Mom's for dinner. It's our "Girls' Night" that her and I do every Thursday. We eat dinner, and we watch our favorite shows. Yesterday, I texted her that I had a craving for spaghetti, so that's what she made for dinner. The problem: My first "serving" was more like a serving and a half. Afterwards, I went back for seconds. (This time it was more like a serving.) I wasn't exactly happy with myself, but sometimes, you are hungry. I wasn't overly full after eating it all, so I didn't stress too much.
Insert problem #2 - As if I was already full from dinner, I decided "Hey! Let's have some ice cream, Samantha!". Yep. It happened. A big bowl of vanilla ice cream and sprinkles. I am a little upset about this one because well, I knew I was full, and I didn't need it. Honestly, I barely eat ice cream.
After eating the ice cream, I was like "Oh! I want some french fries!". So, on the way home, I had every intention to stop by Wendy's to get french fries, but I didn't. I said "No." Did I want them? Yes. Did I need them? No. This was a pretty big victory for me.
This morning, I've been thinking about my "mini-binge" (although celebrating my victory too!). I think I've realized why I felt the need to eat:
1. I haven't been getting enough sleep. Exercise has exhausted me which is great, but sometimes, I wake up not feeling as though I am 100%. Secondly, my sleep time has been cut short because I am making up hours at work for the holiday season.
2. I'm not 100% happy. I don't like my job, and money stresses me out. Not only that, I have been dealing with some added stress lately.
Sleep and emotions. They sort of got the best of me last night. I don't like it, but today's a new day filled with opportunity. Plus, I plan on making a trip to the gym tonight for some much needed exercise.
How do you stop a binge?