Thursday, November 01, 2012
I've written here many times about setbacks, fresh starts, what works, what are my triggers. For months, I feel like I've been in a not so great place on many different parts of my life.
I just got back from vacation. And for some reason, I don't feel as refreshed as I usually do after I get back from time away. Part of that might be I wasn't away long enough. Part of it might also be that I got back home just in time for Hurricane Sandy moving thru my area. Luckily, my immediate neighborhood was not impacted by the storm but many around me were not so lucky. Some colleagues at work have lost everything. Many don't have power and won't have it for many more days to come. Transportation systems are still far from normal. But even before this devastation, I was sad and having trouble dealing.
Yes, I can focus on the positive, but even that takes energy. My sole comforts lately seem to be food and tv. Not a healthy combination, I know. And the scale shows. I've regained 10 of the 17 pounds I lost earlier this year.
Not sure how I will pull myself out of this funk. But one thing is for sure. The more I dwell on the funk, the harder it will be to pull myself out.
So, what if...what if, I write the slate clean and just start from right now to treat myself well. Be good to myself with good food, focus on the tasks at hand, perhaps even walk home (instead of dealing with slow, limited transportation)?