Wednesday, October 31, 2012
So much happened today! First thing this morning I read an article about letting the sun naturally wake you in the morning. It humored me greatly. Really, I laughed. For an hour. Most of it before sunrise while contemplating explaining to my autistic 9 year old "Sorry, baby, you have to get ready for school by yourself and then stand at the busy road that doesn't have lights without me because an "expert" said mommy can't get up before sunrise." Sure, shall I call CPS myself or let an "expert" handle it? That advice is so idealistically naive that it's just ridiculous!
But I did start my 1 mile walk right at sunrise (which is when the bus has been picking my girl up, btw). I had to walk alone again because my neighbor is still sick
She looked better this evening so maybe she can join me in the morning! We bounce our issues off each other when we walk. We have a lot in common and different perspectives on all of it so it's nice.
My ex gave me a doozy of a newsflash this evening, too. He is one very sick man and I wish him well. Truth is, though, I'm more in shock about how I'm reacting than I am about what he told me. I've actually been expecting that for a couple of weeks. It seems as though I am actually over him. 18 years married, another year living together before that, before I finally walked away 16 months ago and my only concern is how this new development will affect my kids. Now if only we can get $600 to finish the divorce...
Also today I confirmed that Fort Oglethorpe, GA, is the worst place for trick or treating I have ever lived. It was so sad! My girl and I walked through our apartment complex and the neighborhood across the street. She got candy at fewer than 10 houses! My son said he didn't get 10 kids come by the whole time we were gone. So there's puh-lenty of candy she can have! And we got to go for a walk on a beautiful evening and talk to some very friendly neighbors
Tomorrow is the first of the month. The day I've been anticipating/dreading for weeks now. I don't know if my ex is going to get enough of a paycheck to make his support payment. Without that I don't know how to pay my rent. Hopefully I'll know when I wake up.
But it's two minutes until bedtime, I can't stop yawning, and I still need to brush my teeth. Sweet dreams to all!