Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I have plateaued. I knew this would happen. I sort of saw it coming - I discovered I could cheat a little on the calories with no great effect. Vacation and now Halloween and working late two nights in a row -- these things are not helping. I was relatively good on vacation - proud of that; but the last few days at work have been hard. Candy is everywhere!!! And when I get home, supper's been so long ago, I'm hungry. I'm trying not to eat too much, but I've got to have something.
I think about the last few days, and the amount of bad food so close to me, and I get really nervous about the rest of the holidays. I mean, this is just the beginning. And the food-pushers, and the guilt-feeders, and the casseroles -- I just don't even want to leave my house. But that's not realistic. My mama would disown me.
So, I've got to get back into training mode, watching every calorie so that when those desserts and casseroles loom I can strongly turn away or just eat a little.
It's like those cartoons you see where one thread comes loose on a sweater and the whole thing unravels. I feel like I have got to get the individual threads back in order. I'm working out, I'm eating mostly right, I haven't been blogging in more than a month, though, and I'm not tracking food like I should. It seems like every year, I screw up at the holidays, and Halloween is always the top of the slide. I am really happy with what I've done so far, with the changes I've made. I don't want to screw up this year. This is important to me. It has been life-changing -- I hope.
I'll start blogging again and tracking. I didn't eat candy today - I ate pumpkin seeds instead. I'll have a small bowl of Kashi when I get home. I'll read all my spark mails and blogs everyday. And I'll count on your good wishes and common sense advice about how to deal with those holiday parties and meals.