Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I was actually going to make this post before I came across this photo but having come across it, it just makes me smile all the more.
I have a friend who is in this with me. She had lost a bunch of weight but put some of it back on and weighs herself NON STOP. I get texts almost daily bemoaning the scale and it's unfairness. She takes cleansing pills and works out and watches her diet and the exercise and diet are great but she's so obsessed with that scale she's missing the point.
The other day it did go down a pound for me but while I was glad, I wasn't all that moved by it because I know I'm making positive changes. I know I'm building muscle, I know I'm getting strong, I know that when my body is ready the scale will move but in the mean time I'm creating this machine that is going to burn up calories like an SUV burns gas -grins-. There will be no stopping it. I'm not doing anything crazy with my diet. I make smart choices but not choices that are going to leave me feeling deprived and have me falling on my face when I have a bad day. I'm listening to my body, I'm letting it decide when the time is right. And it will. I have every faith in that.
I'm drinking my water. I'm working out and staying positive about it. I feel good. I feel positive. I haven't felt this peaceful and zen like about my weight, well, EVER.
Do I occasionally look in the mirror and think "UGH! I'm so sick of this weight, won't it ever come off?" or "I hate my body" Of course I do, I"m not super human, but 90% of the time I can look at is as a process. Which given how out of control I feel in other aspects of my life (namely my career or lack there of) is pretty major.
I also added a couple of pics of myself from this morning. One is me standing naturally, (belly profile) one is me holding it in and showing what I hope to have it look like (with all over toning included).