It's still hard to be without him
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Since my last blog, things have developed quite a bit.
I now have a lawyer, to protect what is now mine. Deed is being updated today or tomorrow.
The Ex will need to prove that anything she wants for the (grown) kids did not come from marital funds.
I have deadbolts on the house and the garage.
The Pathfinder needs some serious work, but I need a few months of driving it before I can get a loan for another vehicle. And I will need a 4WD or AWD vehicle. And it ain't gonna be a standard!! :-P
I've managed to get 2 days in a row of WATP. It wasn't a long video, but it was movement.
I carry a container of dried apricots in my purse, to avoid hypoglycemic episodes, especially when I'm driving. I haven't decided what kind of protein I want to have with that, and that it won't spoil.
And I've started the process of dealing with the day-to-day bills again, making sure there's enough money in the account for the automatic debits.
I've had people stay overnight every night since he passed.
My dog seems to be doing ok. She's eating, and is about as peppy as a 14-yr old German Shepherd can be. But I can tell she misses him too.
I'm still not tracking how much I eat or drink, but that will come soon. I'm more concerned about how it will be when my appetite returns.
There's a reason why there is no chocolate in my house. I can't go there just yet.
Today, I'm not going to do a whole lot. I have one friend coming over after work, the FrankenStorm (aka Storm Sandy) isn't bad here, though the thunder last night was something like I've never heard before. Some wind gusts, the occasional "drownpours", but other than that, so far, we're ok. Power went out for about 2 mins overnight, and I'm relieved over that one.
I miss him a lot, especially at home. I know when I go back to work later in November, I'll be thankful for the distractions, but being home is going to be hard. I have considered getting a roommate, at least for the winter, but I'm not a big fan of that right now. But I know I'll need some company in the evenings ... I just don't know what form that will be just yet.
So I'm hanging in there. I'm still around.
Thank you for being there for me, Sparkers. It's good to have friends who have big shoulders.