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Why don't I want to change


Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Part of me wants to change because I see all the ways my family has suffered with poor health due to many factors including their diet and weight. I know I should change and yet I struggle to make myself care. A large part of me just seems to think so what we all die someday anyway so who cares. At the moment I guess I just can't seem to find a reason to care. I'm not sure why that is but I honestly don't care and that almost scares me because I know the "facts" but I guess it's kind of like all the doctors and such that die from these things they know all the facts as well but that doesn't seem to matter. I just don't know why I think I care for little bits and then I realize no I don't really care that was just another "scare" tactic I put myself through and yet it changed nothing. I guess I did care when I was living at the last place I lived. I just felt different about pretty much everything and I'm not sure what changed other than the geography but it's like everything changed. Suddenly I don't care anymore and I don't feel like wasting my time on goals that I don't care about. Maybe somethings wrong with me... I know I should care and maybe someday I'll care again but for now I just can't seem to make myself feel something I don't.
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BJPENNY70 10/31/2012 12:07AM

    Old habits die hard. It is our comfort zone. I was like that until my body started falling apart. Now 1 stroke, 4 hnee surgeries, one messed up ankle, heart problems, blood pressure problems, diabetes, and finally but recently two back surguries, I woke up. It was about the time of the diabetes I took control. One year ago. I decided I had had enough of obesity, being homebound, and constant health problems. Please don't do what I did. It is a hard road to go down and it is even harder to take control. I did it, though. I am still working on it. I am no longer homebound. My health has greatly improved. I don't want to go that route ever again. I hope this helps you. I think you do really care. You have just given up. That was where I had headed. "It is to hard to do", is what you are telling yourself. It is hard work for sure. The end results are very much worth it. emoticon

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SUSHENO 10/31/2012 12:06AM

    No, it is never good making one feel something she does not. And fear of death should not be a reason to care about your health. Also, any fear of anything should not be the reason for doing anything. I agree with you.

Until you find a real good reason for changing, you won't. But you know what? Once you find a reason, your determination will sky rocket and nothing will get in your way. So hang in there and never give up on yourself. emoticon

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