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Too Long Status Update


Tuesday, October 30, 2012

My status update was too long, so it probably belongs as a note in my blog instead.

I found out that crawling across the grass in public, unexpectedly, for CrossFit & a really hard emotional morning plus extra stress makes a really strong cocktail of crying frustratedly in front of everyone at the park.

I didn't realize how much frustration and stress I was holding in until I couldn't stop it from spilling out. Challenging physical exertion taxes me from a whole different angle, but I guess when my mind is already juggling a dozen other water balloons of stressors, the physicality makes me drop them. And they burst hard and fast, and come out.

I think this is one of the ways that exercise works as stress relief. --And I always thought it would be that I became all "zen" from focusing on the task at hand instead.

My fellow CrossFitters were cheering me on, while I attempted to finish the "monkey-crawl" (no knees) across grass and was last, really last. I couldn't see where I needed to go, how much farther, and it was physically different and challenging, but more in a way that was confusing for my body to coordinate, not painful. Not only that, but I didn't expect to be outside in public. I didn't expect that I'd be covered in bugs and dirt (mud) and grass (and later have to go back to work for 5 more hours) and didn't bring the appropriate clothes, sunscreen or shoes for jogging, or even a pair of socks.

All of this after being worried about friends and family and sparkers facing the hurricane and other weather across the country.. About my sister saying she was disappointed the storm wasn't more impressive where she lived (after 13 people, including a child the same age as my nephew!!! had already been reported as casualties!!!) And after my roommate's son & his fiancee moved in with us with their brand new barely-week-old baby last night... And after a morning of an especially angry person with nothing to lose funneling some of her anger at me for no good reason, including talking about how "hostile" she was accused of being by someone. I have said nothing about her behavior to ANYONE except close friends. I don't complain on Facebook, on here, anywhere, and yet her hostility grows- she described it perfectly. There's more, but nothing any more difficult - it's all pretty innocuous, things that I feel like I should be able to easily handle.

I just need to let it out, I guess.
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FITWITHIN 11/3/2012 5:13PM

    emoticon emoticon I things get better soon.

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JESPAH 11/2/2012 10:58AM

    Oy.

But I think outletting it is good, yes?

Crossfit crawling, eh?

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MCJULIEO 11/1/2012 9:43PM

    Sometimes those tear ducts just need a really good workout! Sounds like you have a lot on your plate... Hang in there, you know that we're rooting for you...

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FINDFITRACHEL 11/1/2012 7:19PM

    Oh man. This made me feel like maybe I am less crazy than I thought. I think ALL the time "I should be able to handle this, I mean it's annoying or even difficult, but not unbearable.." but I think that thought about six million different things and it gets OVERWHELMING. Chaos. That's what I call it. Your words about physical work and how it forces you to let go of the "water balloons" is spot on, too. This blog made me want to go workout.. and I didn't before. Thanks :)

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JLPEASE 11/1/2012 1:38PM

    Sorry!!
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HEALTHYADDIE 11/1/2012 12:27PM

    Sorry you're dealing with so much! I do the same thing -- let everything build up until it's too overwhelming and it all just spills out. When I figure out how to stop doing that I'll let you know, and you do the same!!
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PATTYCAKE17 11/1/2012 12:05PM

    At least you're not toting those messy balloons around anymore! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LJCANNON 11/1/2012 1:04AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I think that your analogy about the "Water Balloons" was Right On!! You were juggling as many things as you possibly could and the Workout (in Public?!?) was Too Much.
emoticon You released some of it with the Tears, and more of it here with the Blog. That was an Excellent move on your part. Now, you can dust off and move on, remembering that you Do Have Limits, and that it is OK to Take Care Of YOU.

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BARCLE 10/31/2012 10:54PM

    You've got a lot going on - I offer my spark support too emoticon

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BUTTERFLYROSE1 10/31/2012 8:12PM

    Talk about a toxic cocktail. To many toxic attitudes and people in your environment. :( What's worse is that you have to deal with it, and processes it
I would have cried too -- and then some. I'm here for you wolfkitty. Take some time do something unusual and fun that isn't to stressing or taxing.
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MERRY_XMAS 10/31/2012 5:33PM

    It's a great thing that you let your emotions come out. I think that expressing your feelings takes more courage and strong will than keeping them to yourself.

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KATYMS 10/31/2012 4:31PM

    I really hope you feel better. emoticon

Sometimes, even though the frustrations around us are small, they dog pile on us all at once and become momentarily overwhelming.

Believe me I have cried at some seriously inopportune moments in my life. emoticon

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.DUSTY. 10/31/2012 1:34PM

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_KATHY 10/31/2012 11:18AM

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MARTY728 10/31/2012 10:21AM

    You can do this! Remember we all forget to engage our brains before opening our mouths at times. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HHB4181 10/31/2012 9:55AM

    yikes, sounds like a tough day... sorry

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-POOKIE- 10/31/2012 9:43AM

    Ouch, things just sound a bit much.

Do you feel better for releasing some tears?

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DEZZIEJAMES 10/31/2012 9:07AM

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You sound like me. Overwhelmed. You have so much on your mental plate. I think you do need to find a way to let it out. Keep blogging it out, or sit down and write a letter/journal/diary. Just get it out there.

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 10/31/2012 8:05AM

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You are an inspiration!!

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PATTILYNN224 10/31/2012 7:45AM

    Thinking of you

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ADVENTURE-GIRL 10/31/2012 12:43AM

    I am sorry that you so much stress right now. I hope you can find a way to deal with it in a healthy way and that people will be more considerate.
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KSWILDANGELL 10/31/2012 12:20AM

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JILLYBEAN25 10/31/2012 12:12AM

    Oh, man. I am the same way with people, regarding the weather comment. I hate it when people always say how they like/love earthquakes, not realizing how devastating they are. During the Easter quake a few years ago I had so many people say they enjoyed the quake, in the meantime my parent's house sustained quite a bit of damage. Not cool. I tend to hold in my stress and other things that bother me, too, and often they get released in "inappropriate" situations. I'm learning to be better about it. I hope you start to feel a bit better soon.

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SYZYGY922 10/31/2012 12:08AM

    Wow, that is an intense story. That's awesome that you stuck to your guns and made it through that workout.

That's a lot of stress to handle at once. It's good that you have an outlet, even if it can be a frustrating one! Blogging helps, too!

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