Tuesday, October 30, 2012
After reading the first chapter of The Spark and learning more about Chris I got to thinking a little bit. Well ok, I thought a lot. I thought specifically about mistakes I've made in my life. Nothing too dramatic really. Got married too young (terrible idea, got the divorce papers to prove it). Trusted the wrong people. Got into a wrong relationship or two. Won't go into it any more than that, not here anyway.
The point is it all could have turned me off men and relationships and trusting people completely but it didn't. I am in a wonderful relationship right now, planning on moving in with him and having a life with him. So, you see, my mistakes haven't stopped me. Merely delayed me a bit.
It's been a long road. In between mistakes I've lost 70 pounds, received my B.A. in music, sung in front of 40,000 people on the 4th of July (with my ex-husband's sister no less), gone to Italy by myself for a few months, and started forging a teaching career for myself.
You'd think that any mistakes after all that would seem minimal, right? Granted I haven't married anyone or gone trusting the wrong people again, but I have made mistakes. The most recent seems to be my demeanor in the classroom. Or maybe I'm just blaming myself instead of the poorly behaved students? From the first day I've been determined to be the nice, but firm, teacher. The one who wouldn't put up with misbehavior in her classroom and student would feel comfortable with her. It appears I've done that second part too well. Students are so comfortable in my class that they misbehave. Constantly talking with their friends, not paying attention, being disrespectful and being seriously shocked when I do something about it (detention). Luckily this job is temporary and my main goal is just to get through til the middle of December. But still, I'd like to prevent this from happening again.