Monday, October 29, 2012
Here we are on my first day of my new diet. Well, actually, it's day two, but my new strategy is to take a page from Dr. Phil's book and to give myself a free day once a week. Since we almost always go out to be with family on Sundays, It will most often be that day. So my day one was actually a free day where I eat whatever the heck I want.
I just finished an eight week detox diet. I had done that in the past with terrific results. I had lost 45 pounds in eight weeks. I expected a little better results, I was hoping for 50 pounds. I thought that I would cheat less. As it turns out, I cheated a lot more. I only lost 15 pounds. At least I did the eight weeks (okay, I took one week off when I went back to California), and I didn't gain! Still, the results are depressing. I should have done better.
There's a lot of stress too. Not that it should be an excuse, but really, the only time when my life was more stressful then now was when my son was borne. He was premature with multiple medical issues. Nothing is more stressful then that, but this is definately up there within the top ten of the most stressful times of my life.
I am very upset these last months over the suicide of my sister, Sherri. She struggled with depression her whole life. About a month after moving away from my home town of Vista Ca to Crown Point IN, she lost her battle with depression. She hung herself in the bedroom closet of my old bedroom in her apartment. She left a note blasting the whole family. Everyone got to read the note except me. My family would not allow me to read it for whatever reason. I assume she blamed me. That would be just like her.
As if the stress of these things were not enough, I am unemployable. I am only able to stand for a couple of hours at a time. I can sit for up to five hours. I can't do any heavy lifting and if you knew the person I was before my work accident, you would know how depressing these limitations are for me. I am a laborer by nature. My Doctors say it's time for me to work smarter, not harder. This is a problem because I actually love physical work. Now I am in a tug of war for money from my employer just to help pay bills.
What a time for my truck to break down. We put so much work into it over the last couple of years, so we paid $1500.00 in repairs recently, and now the check engine light is on. We can't seem to catch a break. It's our only vehicle, and with no money coming in right now, I don't know how or when we will be able to fix it. Not to mention it will be needing registration soon.
So there is the short list of stress factors. Luckily I just moved to Indiana where I am surrounded with some great people. My fiance, and my new soon to be Mother in law are a great support team for me. They keep me sane and I love them so much for that. I am very lucky to have them.
I won't let the stress stop me. I feel better knowing that I am giving myself better health. It is really the best thing to conquer the stress. I have other issues too. I won't let them be an excuse either.
I can't do a lot in the way of exercise because of a herniated disc and a seriously injured knee. I wasn't supposed to walk without a splint for a year, but mine was off in a month. Still, walking, standing and even sitting too long can be too much, so exercise was out of the question. Today, however, I am a lot better. I am going to ease into a workout routine starting today.
So that's where I am on my day one. I am very impressed with this sight and hope that I am a huge success here. Yeah! for day one, er...um, day two!