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Day One!!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Here we are on my first day of my new diet. Well, actually, it's day two, but my new strategy is to take a page from Dr. Phil's book and to give myself a free day once a week. Since we almost always go out to be with family on Sundays, It will most often be that day. So my day one was actually a free day where I eat whatever the heck I want.

I just finished an eight week detox diet. I had done that in the past with terrific results. I had lost 45 pounds in eight weeks. I expected a little better results, I was hoping for 50 pounds. I thought that I would cheat less. As it turns out, I cheated a lot more. I only lost 15 pounds. At least I did the eight weeks (okay, I took one week off when I went back to California), and I didn't gain! Still, the results are depressing. I should have done better.

There's a lot of stress too. Not that it should be an excuse, but really, the only time when my life was more stressful then now was when my son was borne. He was premature with multiple medical issues. Nothing is more stressful then that, but this is definately up there within the top ten of the most stressful times of my life.

I am very upset these last months over the suicide of my sister, Sherri. She struggled with depression her whole life. About a month after moving away from my home town of Vista Ca to Crown Point IN, she lost her battle with depression. She hung herself in the bedroom closet of my old bedroom in her apartment. She left a note blasting the whole family. Everyone got to read the note except me. My family would not allow me to read it for whatever reason. I assume she blamed me. That would be just like her.

As if the stress of these things were not enough, I am unemployable. I am only able to stand for a couple of hours at a time. I can sit for up to five hours. I can't do any heavy lifting and if you knew the person I was before my work accident, you would know how depressing these limitations are for me. I am a laborer by nature. My Doctors say it's time for me to work smarter, not harder. This is a problem because I actually love physical work. Now I am in a tug of war for money from my employer just to help pay bills.

What a time for my truck to break down. We put so much work into it over the last couple of years, so we paid $1500.00 in repairs recently, and now the check engine light is on. We can't seem to catch a break. It's our only vehicle, and with no money coming in right now, I don't know how or when we will be able to fix it. Not to mention it will be needing registration soon.

So there is the short list of stress factors. Luckily I just moved to Indiana where I am surrounded with some great people. My fiance, and my new soon to be Mother in law are a great support team for me. They keep me sane and I love them so much for that. I am very lucky to have them.

I won't let the stress stop me. I feel better knowing that I am giving myself better health. It is really the best thing to conquer the stress. I have other issues too. I won't let them be an excuse either.

I can't do a lot in the way of exercise because of a herniated disc and a seriously injured knee. I wasn't supposed to walk without a splint for a year, but mine was off in a month. Still, walking, standing and even sitting too long can be too much, so exercise was out of the question. Today, however, I am a lot better. I am going to ease into a workout routine starting today.

So that's where I am on my day one. I am very impressed with this sight and hope that I am a huge success here. Yeah! for day one, er...um, day two!
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    My Sweet - PLEASE BE CAREFUL - that is an excessive amount of weight to lose is a short period of time. This journey isn't about how fast we get to our goal but how safely we get there and STAY there!

    BIG hugs,
    1929 days ago
    Thanks so much! I am surprised that even one person read all that.

    Okay, I overdid that workout a bit, but it's okay. As my son's doctor would say when he was healing, "Two steps forward, and one step back." I couldn't do a whole lot after the housework yesterday, so I read an article for tips on what I can do, and I actually used one! I chose to go to a big super-store for a small list of things that I could have easily purchased in a small convenience store. I HATE to shop (I know weird huh?) but the extra walking was the perfect way to sneak in some exercise. I was so proud of myself. I kept forgetting things too, so I had to walk up and down the aisles a lot. It isn't a workout, but it beats sitting around and feeling sorry for myself.

    Today I feel much better I am going to try a middle body workout-Yikes! I hope my back is happier than it was with my upper body. I will take it very,very slow.

    It's funny, earlier when I wrote about my problems, I was so sad and angry that I didn't think I would be feeling this good again any time soon. Even though my first workout gave me some pain, and I couldn't be "perfect" and continue the next day, I am more enthused about my next workout than I have ever been before. Me, wanting to exercise? Really? Wow!

    Thanks again and take care! emoticon
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  • TIG123GER
    Congrats on Day 1 and here's hoping you have many more great days!
    1943 days ago
    Just be careful with your workout. You don't want to injure yourself further. It sounds like it has been quite the time for you, and hopefully things will start to look up in the near future! emoticon
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