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Yoga...take 482.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

I went "back" to yoga today.

I noticed some things.

I notice that I get very anxious when there are boys in a yoga class...especially when they share mat space near me. They could be 500 years old and I am still anxious. The ones today were young...23 or so. One of the two asked how long I'd been practicing... I said off and on for a few years... And he said he'd been coming about 2 weeks. Admirable. Until he out-yoga'd me.

I notice that I prefer to yoga in the dark or without a mirror. I hated any fitness class with a mirror, and I still do... I hate having to face myself, my body, how awful it looks in any mirror... I hate how I see every bulge, every no matter how well I am aligned, I still look like a beach ball with legs on the mat.

I notice that when I spend time away from yoga, it's a lot like starting over with running or anything else fitness... there are things you can't do well anymore...things that take time and practice to get good at... and it's discouraging.

I notice that yin-storative (which is what my studio calls yin yoga which is a restorative practice) is at the same time comforting and emotional. Several times tonight I teared up...not because something hurt, rather because an emotion came to the surface... I know this is normal, but it was still odd...trying to suppress tears sos that I didn't interfere with anyone else's practice.

I notice that I feel calmer after...even though I was discouraged, emotional, sad, and feeling much like a hippo.

I notice that though I am not the lithe, thin, tall stereotypical yogini in the room, I still feel good when I stop focusing on the mirror..the challenge... I remember reading things from @bravenewgrl about her yogic journey and how self-conscious she was...yet she did it anyway, focusing on her strength... and I know I can do the same thing... And I told myself that a lot tonight.

So thank you all...for continuing to inspire me :) All of you have made great changes in your lives...and so can I.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
PATSYB7 10/29/2012 10:11AM

    Mirrors are distracting! I like to ask the teacher before class to help me re-position correctly if necessary. Then I close my eyes and concentrate on how it feels so I can do it correctly on my own next time. I also like to focus on the positive aspects of my body whenever possible, especially during the relaxation time at the end of a practice. When squeezing muscles just before relaxing them, I thank them for helping me and working for me.

Keep up the good work! Om!

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SHERRY28269 10/29/2012 9:15AM

    Mirrors are too distracting I agree. Keep up the great work! emoticon

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BRAVENEWGRL 10/29/2012 8:53AM

    I look past the mirror now - it helps me just focus on me. I use the mirror when I want to get deeper and take a pose to a new level. I also make myself really look at myself sometimes too - in a kind and forgiving way. It's hard because I still want to find fault... but I'm learning to let that go.

I've missed your posts! Stupid work...

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