I'm not much of a blogger. Don't normally have anything to say, or nothing that I haven't said before, and this blog isn't much different.

I'm about 1.2 pounds away from being 150 pounds lighter than I was in August of 2011. I still get amazed by that number every time I think about it. Is it for real? Was that actually me that did that when I never thought that I could? It sinks in every once in a while, but most days I don't feel too much different.

I've been having a hard time with sweets lately, which is probably why it took me 10 weeks or so to lose 10 pounds. I went down and back up and down and back up for about 5 weeks and lost a pound or two in between. Finally, 10 weeks later, I am at 188.4 and happy to be here! Luckily, once I saw 199, I never saw 200+ again while yo-yoing. I never wanna see that 2 again!

My first original goal was to end at 187, but now that I'm a pound away, I sorta wanna keep going. I guess I really wanna start to get toned, but working the right muscles and doing the right strength training machines sort of bores the crap outta me. I used to have a workout partner and he was good at keeping me doing the strength training, but he stopped going due to health issues. He wants to start back up again, so I think I'm gonna take two days a week or so where I go hard on the strength training and a little bit less on cardio those days.

I still haven't picked an "off day" yet, either. I was debating on taking Sundays off, but normally I go because I need something to do. Or I start to feel guilty about it. I guess that's not a bad thing, since its good for you anyways.

I'm gonna start a new goal now, since the holidays are coming up, and I did so well with them last year, I would like to do the same this year. I lost weight over both major holidays and was even able to enjoy some sweets doing so. I would like to do the same this year, where I am able to enjoy a piece of pie or a sugar cookie, but still maintain, or even lose. So my goal is to be 180 or less by the end of the year. That's 8 pounds away, about 4 pounds a month. Should definitely be doable, if I stick with my moderation and fewer sweets.

One big change that I have noticed since losing weight is my self esteem. I have so much more now! My best friend said to me the other day "Just so you know, and don't take this the wrong way, but I like this Amanda so much more than the old one". How could I take offense to that?! I do too! I dance, am more care free and care less about what people think of me. She gave me one of the best compliments ever!
Last night we went out for Halloween and even though I didn't dress up in costume, I wore a skirt with nylons and big boots, something I never would have done before. It would have been jeans and a sweatshirt. Its nice to be able to feel pretty and look like everyone else!

So I just have to keep working on maintaining and losing a bit here and there. I don't know what I want my ending weight to be, but anything less than where I was, and how unhappy I was, is fine with me!

Sorry this blog is so rambley and all over the place... I didn't get much sleep last night and its early! Have a good day, everyone!