Saturday, October 27, 2012
I ran for the first time outside on Thursday. I am an aching mess today. It was so different running outside, compared to my treadmill. I tried to keep a slow pace...I jog so slowly on my treadmill, so I didn't want to get out of breath on the streets. But, I did. At times I had a hard time catching my breath, but the most frustrating part was that my legs, butt, everything..hurt, and still hurts. I am so discouraged. I do not see how I will be ready by November 16th for a 5K. I ran/walked 2 miles in 32 minutes, and I was exhausted. I could cry. I wish I weighed less. I wish I didnt feel my hips flopping up and down as I run. I wish I had the freedom of just running, and feeling good. I ran at night because I couldn't bear the thought of someone seeing me during the day (and I like the cooler nights) but I kept catching my huge shadow in the street lights. I actually prefer running outside...the cool breeze, the smells. But, it was SO hard! I guess I am having a pity party. But, I really wanted to run this 5k in November. But, I don't see how it can happen. And that makes me so sad.