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I feel AMAZING!!!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Seriously, for the last couple days, I've been in the BEST mood! I don't know if it's the cool temps, the beautiful leaves, fun conversation, or the fact that the damn scale finally moved in the right direction, WooHoo!

I've been in the 170's since MARCH! Today I saw 170.0. I got off and on 3 times! I know it could go back up next week, and yes, it'll suck just like it sucks EVERY time the scale goes up. But this is the lowest number I've seen since July. I haven't been able to get past 171. This is HUGE for me! To celebrate I had a dance party!!! I've been dancing around my office all day and singing all evening. The kids are telling ME to be quiet, they can't go to sleep, WHATEVER!!!!

It made me think about a conversation I had with my dad about my weight. He's really concerned that it affects me as much as is does. He's SUPER proud of all I've done, but he's afraid I'm hell bent on losing the last 20 "at all costs." Now, he's seen me eat, but he doesn't think I eat enough. The problem is, he's so used to me shoveling it in, even after 2 1/2 years of eating smaller portions, it's still kind of shocking to him. He's afraid I work out too much, especially now, with the bradycardia. But the "at all costs" really bothered ME.

I'm pretty competitive, and when I got on this roller coaster, I set a goal for myself, like we all do. I want to weigh 150 pounds, that would mean I've lost more than half my starting weight. I'll still be 25 pounds overweight, but that's another blog. It's true, I'm an all or nothing type girl, always have been. But I don't know what he thinks I'm going to do to speed up this process. I'm pretty sure, it can't go much slower, lol!

I'm really proud to say that I did this ON MY OWN (without surgical intervention... you all know I couldn't have done this without my sparkly peeps!). Like a lot of you I'm sure, I thought about the surgery, and decided it wasn't for me, so I decided to go old school. I've learned SO much about myself during the last 2 1/2 years, and as frustrating and hard, and downright crappy as it is sometimes, it's been one hell of a ride and I'm glad I'm doing it this way.

This process can be overwhelming to say the least. But it's the little things... like seeing a new number on the scale, beating my mile time, and fitting into a smaller pair of jeans, that help me remember WHY I'm STILL doing this.

I'm on such a high right now, I don't know what to do with myself!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!
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    I just came across this post of yours. There is so much happiness in it. Well done and keep up the great mood. It can make a huge difference to our motivation in reaching those goals.

    1932 days ago
    I'm so happy for you! I feel like I could have written that post! :) I was in the 180s for the longest time, finally got to 176, and now I am around 180 again. :( I haven't been feeling that great lately and with all the running and stuff, I was not careful about tracking, so my weight crept up. It's so annoying how easily I gain weight. Anyway, I am glad you are feeling so great and you should be really proud of yourself and how far you've come.
    1961 days ago
    That is so great and awesome emoticon
    1965 days ago
    You GO girl!!! Congratulations to you---you're making it happen!
    1966 days ago
    that is awesome.....so happy for you!
    1966 days ago
    Oh Holly! I'm doing a happy dance for you my friend! YAY!
    Keep doing it, you are doing a great job!
    I think to be good at something you have to be alittle obsessive, or you won't accomplish what you set out to do. I'm competative too. Best chance I have at losing weight is if I'm competeing for it. I always win the weight loss competitions at work, because I'm way to competative....but what I need is long term thing.
    You are doing an awesome job & should be riding that high for a while!! You are doing it girl, you are fantabulous!!!!!
    1967 days ago
    Simply awesome and very inspiring! :) emoticon
    1968 days ago
    emoticon you are emoticon
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  • DIANER2014
    Congratulations! Thanks for the motivation! Very proud of you. Keep up the awesome job! emoticon emoticon
    1968 days ago
    Congrats, Holly! We all know how good it feels when the scale moves us closer to our goals :)

    You rock emoticon
    1968 days ago
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    You will be out of the 170s in NO TIME!!!!!!!!!!! Soooo proud of you HOLLY!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    1969 days ago
    Love love love it! I am so proud of you Holly for making it happen this week; I knew you could do it. Your blog was so great to read. I could feel the good vibes coming off of it. emoticon emoticon
    1969 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    Congrats Holly! I'm glad you are feeling amazing. It's hard sometimes for those who love us to watch us struggle with our weight. It *does* take an awful lot of focus and energy to make such a big change... but then when you're feeling fantastic and full of energy and positivity, well it's all worth it.
    1969 days ago
    Congratulations, Holly! I'm so excited for you! I've been the same way - stuck for a long time. I know I'm not where I want to be for good, but it's been a nice break. Time to continue on. Hope you had fun dancing! :)
    1969 days ago
    You are awesome! You looks great, but I understand about those "last x lbs".... When you have a certain # in your mind, you just really want to be there. You can do it!
    1969 days ago
    YAY FOR YOU!!!!

    1969 days ago
    So glad to have you share the news. Keep on keeping on.
    1969 days ago
    Congratulations on hitting a new low! That is an exciting feeling and really motivates you to keep going and break through the next barrier. I am also an all or nothing type of person and it is how I am successful. I think each of us have to figure out what works for us and stick to it.
    Happy to see you dancing!
    1969 days ago
    I'm excited for you! You are gonna get where you want to be holly, cause yiurecawesome like that! Love ya!
    1969 days ago
  • KANOE10
    emoticon Celebrate that one pound!!!!! You deserve the best and have done such a wonderful job of losing weight and getting healthy!

    1969 days ago
    emoticon I'm doing the happy dance & emoticon for you Holly!! emoticon
    1969 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    *smiles* love this x
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    1969 days ago
    You earned every bit of that dance party, girlfriend!!! WOO HOO! So excited for you!!
    1969 days ago
    Many, MANY congratulations on everything that you've achieved. There must be some really positive vibes flying through the air!

    I totally feel you about the "at all costs" thing and the worry it can sometimes cause both in ourselves and those who love us. I can actually offer you some encouragement in this department because after nearly eight months on maintenance, I am FINALLY starting to become more relaxed about managing my weight. Like I wrote in my blog (thanks for stopping by and commenting, by the way!), I no longer agonize over every small misstep I make and am finally starting to feel like all of my healthy habits are firmly in place and that I can take a deep breath and relax a bit. I know it's frustrating when you feel like you're stuck but, trust me, if you keep up all of your great work, the rest of the weight you want to lose will eventually come off. I hope that you get there soon and that I'll be reading about how great it is for you to be at goal!

    Have a great weekend!
    1969 days ago
    Great job!!! Celebrate!!
    1969 days ago
    You deserve to celebrate!!! Dance until your feet hurt.
    I am so glad for you. I've heard your struggles with the number on the scale over the last months. You've overcome and the number has budged.
    Thanks for being real about your journey--the joys and the struggles.
    Have a fantastic weekend.
    1970 days ago
    You're doing Awesome!
    1970 days ago
    So very happy for you!!!

    You inspire me all the time!!

    Good Job!!!
    1970 days ago
    So proud of you girl! Keep up the great work!
    1970 days ago
    I completely understand you, i am an all or nothing guy too. The little victories are just that, victories. ANY victory is a victory, as long as you are happy with yourself and you dont think you are pushing it too far, then you are doing fine. Parents worry about us from the day we are born until the day they leave this world, so dont be too hard on him LOL. You are awesome!!

    1970 days ago
  • DAWNESS0404
    1970 days ago
    You dance your heart out!! And don't forget to track it while you're at it. emoticon
    1970 days ago
    Good for you girl! And I think no matter what age we are, it's our parents' jobs to worry about us and to want to make sure we're eating enough and taking care of ourselves. They mean well, but it can be frustrating at times. You just have to pay attention to your body's own signals and change things up if need be or if at some point it's telling you you're pushing too hard. emoticon
    1970 days ago
    Your are so awesome and such an inspiration! So happy and excited for you!! I needed your blog after being in a little rut.. Dancing with you, for you..! Keep it up!! emoticon
    1970 days ago
    My husband is often concerned about the "at all costs" thing as well. He knows I'm eating plenty and such, but he thinks I'm mentally taxing myself too much, and in a way, he's probably right, because no matter what I try, I can't help thinking about all this, you know? But it gets on my nerves sometimes, and I admit I even snapped at him the other day when he said something to the effect of "Maybe your body just thinks it's supposed to be at this weight." I'm so tired of people saying that. My body doesn't think it should be here. It's slow now, especially since my body fat percentage went into the "normal" range, but that doesn't mean I should just settle for a size I know is too big for me. Anyway, just saying that I understand.

    And I also understand how fantastic it feels for the scale to start moving again!! I'm right with you, girl! Congrats! Doing a happy dance for you. :D
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