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Friday, October 26, 2012

Yesterday was a rough eating day. For some reason, I just did not want a healthy meal. Now, I know that this is a lifestyle change, and itís going to require eating normally for, you know, ever. But part of eating normally is digging into a burger and fries or a really unhealthy pizza and, yes, eating more than is a healthy amount for one person.

Iíve built myself into a mini-complex lately, mostly because I have these numbers that I want to hit in a certain amount of time. I really, really want to be under 300 by my birthday on December 10th. Thatís 45 days to lose 12 pounds. That should be attainable; I havenít lost less than 15.4 pounds in any 45-day period since May 20th (yes, I have a spreadsheet; yes, itís very detailed; yes, Iím a nerd). But in the last twelve days, Iíve lost zero weight. In fact, Iíve actually gained 0.2 pounds.

This is not a big deal. But then, neither is getting below 300 by my birthday. But in a way, it is. At least, the latter is. Iíve spent every single day of my 20s at over 300 pounds. First, I donít want that to be the case when my 20s end. Second, I want to spend every day of my 30s at less than 300 pounds. I know itís completely arbitrary, and that if I donít get there by December 10th, Iíll probably get there by December 20th. But as someone that doesnít often put stock in arbitrary dates and numbers, this is surprisingly important.

That being said, at some point in the future, Iím taking myself a big fat cheat day. Itís going to be marvelous. Iíve set that date for when I get under 290 pounds. Iím not going to take the chance that Iíll bounce back up over 300, especially if I do get there before my birthday. Thereís no chance I could eat the food necessary to gain that much in real weight, but with salt and natural fluctuations in body weight, I want to give myself a wide berth (get it? WIDE BERTH!) between myself and 300.

Other than that, things are going pretty well. Iíve rededicated myself to exercise and my strength training is in full gear. I do have another mini-complex around exercise, though. When Iím in a place where Iím working out 5-6 times a week, I get a guilt complex when I skip a workout. I didnít work out yesterday. I probably should have, but Iím having guests over on Saturday so I was cleaning, and I got sidetracked going through my wardrobe and throwing all my too-big clothes into the Goodwill pile, which leads me to believe that I was also giving myself a bit of an ego boost. So there were things that needed to be done and things that I just wanted to do and I ended up not working out. I have plans tonight, though, and itís highly unlikely that Iíll get a workout in. Since I knew this already, I felt a nasty twinge of guilt about missing a workout when I didnít really ďneedĒ to. The good news is Iím going to be exercising into the foreseeable future.

Finally, I constantly feel like Iím running out of things to blog about. My updates have become fairly few and far between. So I thought Iíd see if my readers have anything theyíd like me to write about or questions that theyíd like to ask. No topicís off-limits and Iíll answer anyoneís question. Text, Twitter, SparkMail, comment on here, any way youíd like to ask. I want more reasons to come on here and talk about whatís going on. Just donít describe weight loss as a ďjourneyĒ!
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

THENEWMANDA 11/8/2012 5:42PM

    Your birthday is 5 days after mine.. I need to lose 13 lbs by then! AHHH. I feel like it's not going to be easy AT ALL. You have been doing an amazing job, I wish I was dropping as fast as you. As long as it stays off, I'm happy. Keep blogging, it does inspire us all, you have an awesome gift when it comes to writing! Doesn't hurt that you are funny. Good luck on the birthday goal! If you need a partner in crime I'm only 5 days ahead of you on mine emoticon

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SOFT_VAL67 10/29/2012 8:53AM

    Regardless of whether you lose down under 300 pounds by your still rock and are totally awesome.
I have had a cheat two days and it wasnt planned, or a celebration.
It was a momentary, two days, loss of common dietary sense.
But you are still an inspiration and I know you will continue to be successful, because you really know your goals, have them mapped out and the spreadsheets are wonderful idea.
You are already winning this game. emoticon

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REDHATSHAPELY1 10/27/2012 7:16PM

    You have given us some food for thought (no pun intended) about what is the best way to think about food and eating and weight management and not feeling deprived. I think that to be successful one has to do more than eat healthy stuff. It starts with unlearning and overriding all the old messages about food that we learned growing up.
That takes some doing. There are lots of people who don't succeed at this because they don't recognize the importance of unlearning. One of the big things I had to unlearn was peer pressure from friends and relatives to eat "splurge" foods and peer pressure from the marketers of America who advertise during TV sporting events and prime couch potato time in the evening.

So in my opinion I cannot condone having a cheat day. A meal--yes--but not a whole day. This is why. I consider people who have long term weight problems on some level to have an "allergy" to food. They are unable to control how much they eat and what kinds of things they eat. You have done
a lot of work up to this point working on healing this food allergy. If you plan a whole cheat day I believe you would be re-sensitizing your body to all the craving triggers you have begun to get control over. If you knew you had a terrible hay fever allergy and being outside when there was a high level of pollen caused you to have trouble
breathing, do you think it would be a good idea to go outside and roll around in the grass all day? It's the same thing. Something to think about.

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FITAT50 10/27/2012 5:40PM

    By putting the pressure on yourself you may be subconsciously be sabotaging yourself, if that makes sense. Stop thinking about you want to be a certain weight by a certain time, let it go.

"Cheat" meals are ok once in a while but I don't believe in having a regular cheat day. But knowing you will allow yourself a "controlled" cheat meal (not day) in the foreseeable future may be enough to keep you in check now.

Rule of thumb...Never go more than 2 days in a row without exercise.

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INIT2LIVEIT 10/27/2012 5:22PM

    It will be interesting to see if taking a couple days off from working out and letting your body rest might not have a positive impact and jump start your weight loss again? Some times the bod really needs a break.

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MICHIGANLORI 10/27/2012 4:18PM

    We all cheat now and then. Turning it around the next day is what counts. I with you on the exercise guilt complex. If you figure that one out, let me know.

You are making great progress. emoticon

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DOOBRIE 10/27/2012 4:42AM

    I think it's good to have a little cheat (or treat, I prefer to call them) now and again (not sure about a big fat cheat though!). If you're "good" 100% of the time you can get very bored and feel resentful about having to diet all the time.


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JUSTLIKEALICE 10/27/2012 12:22AM

    If you feel like you aren't making progress you can always trick your body by changing your routine... even just changing the order in which you doing things might help :) just a thought for your "journey" hehehehe ....thats what you get for ignoring my email ;)

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WINDSONG26 10/26/2012 11:42PM

    I just wish I knew how you keep going. How do you keep the motivation?

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BLONDE2B 10/26/2012 10:23PM

    I think you are falling into the trap that many of us do too easily - thinking that we have to be perfect! Eat perfectly, exercise perfectly, etc. I think you need to give yourself a bit of a break.

It sounds like you have been doing fabulously, and it is OK to have the odd day where other things take priority over exercise - you're not making a habit out of it. Just get back on track the next day, and don't put the pressure of expecting perfection from yourself, and I'm sure you'll continue on doing great.

BTW, it's great to hear of another Excel junkie geek! emoticon

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ANGIEDW1 10/26/2012 9:22PM

    I really get how you feel about being under 300 by your birthday. I had similar feelings about turning 40. Don't be too hard on yourself and just keep pushing. You are doing great!!!!

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XXMILAXX 10/26/2012 8:08PM

    Good luck with your weightloss goals! It is whatever you want it to be but it going to be hard work! Stick to it, it is not Impossible!

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BELLSES 10/26/2012 5:16PM

    Is there a way to work A slice of pizza, or A burger into your calories for a day? Not a cheat day, but a way to keep yourself from feeling deprived. Just wondering if there's a way for you to work them in. Ruling foods out completely, or the idea of cheat days, can be more likely to lead to binging.

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THEMIS27 10/26/2012 4:24PM

    I love your ambition and dedication to reaching your goal. Stick with it - you're getting there!

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ATTACKFATCAT 10/26/2012 4:23PM

    When you get in that groove on exercising, it's hard to make any changes to your routine because of other things that take priority. I joined the Y and at first was going four to five days out of the week. But I quickly realized that gave me no free time to do things around the house and visit family. So I had to shuffle things around a bit where I'm still getting a lot of exercise, but I'm only doing it one or two nights a week. Some weeks you just have to switch things around. It's all a part of making this last long term.

Have your last few weigh-ins been getting gradually smaller the last few months? That would signal more of a plateau issue and you might want to mix things up a bit. If it's just been the last few weeks, then maybe you need to make sure you are really hitting your goals. If you are, just keep at it. I've had a few weeks where I did great eating/exercising and didn't lose and even gained a little, but after a week or two it usually starts heading in the right direction again.

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BUBBLEJ1 10/26/2012 3:50PM

    I am sure you will meet your goal. Keep on eating right and exercising, and the weight will come off. I know what you mean about wanting to meet certain goals. I want to be at my goal weight by my birthday (14th December), but in order to do that I would have to lose another 3kg, or 6lb. Sounds achievable, but since I am so close to my goal weight it probably isn't. I would have to lose a pound a week, and my average is half a pound a week. Never mind, we will get there in the end!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 10/26/2012 3:48PM

    I love your blogs but I also know that blogging can be a source of insight and revelation for some people, a record of events for others, and just plain irritating for yet others.

I wonder if it would be a possibility for you to take your "cheat day" and transform it into a different kind of "cheat"--buy yourself a non-food treat. Or depending on where you live, go out to a very healthy restaurant. Your mileage may vary but I am fairly certain that I must stay in a mindset where food is not the reward, food is merely the fuel. If you gas up your car you don't want to spill fuel on the ground and waste your money. Thus if you gas up your body you don't want extraneous calories out there.

I'm an old old lady and I am not wise but it took me decades before I realized that the illusory taste, comfort, and sensation of food are just a snare and a delusion.

I am trying hard to make it to the 200 mark. I really want to be well down in the 190's by your birthday.

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LIVEDAILY 10/26/2012 3:44PM

    The human body has ways of protecting itself. We all know about the "starvation mode" if you don't eat enough calories, but there are other mechanisms at play as well. For me, I know, if I don't get enough sleep and burn the candle at both ends, my body sort of shuts down. I retain water, AND I don't have regular bm's (sorry if tmi but it's for a good reason). This past Wednesday was weigh in and for the first time since the BLC started, I did not have a weight loss, but I knew why! In 3 days time, I've got some rest and my body is revving back up again. I got on the scale this am because I just felt so much better, and there was a loss and I know if I continue to get my rest, I'll continue to lose. Why my body does that, I have no idea. if I knew that, I'd be a doctor and not a teacher...snort!

Food (sorry this is so long)...both times I had something that I used to love to eat, I felt sick to my stomach. I can't tolerate the fat anymore (tuna salad with mayo; Pad Thai...sigh). So just be forewarned. My idea of treating myself anymore is having a HUGE salad!! lol Oh, and copious amounts of wine. Always wine.

Exercise... there are going to be days when you'll only be able to get 10 minutes of fitness in. That's 10 more than ZERO. Every little bit helps. The other poster mentioned walking. That's a great idea. I want to get a FitBit! I think if I find out what I already do day-to-day, then I can create ways to do more.

Last, but not least, your blogs. Everyone can learn something new everyday from someone else. While you may think your musings aren't important, someone else may be inspired. One never knows. Just don't stop.

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ADARKARA 10/26/2012 3:14PM

    Hey look, everyone has days where they don't feel like eating healthy. It might be that this crappy food eating will be a kick start to your weight loss. Every now and then a 'binge' day is okay! You're doing great, just keep it up! emoticon

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MYBULLDOGS 10/26/2012 3:12PM



my sister walks 15,000 steps a day at 63 years
old and has lost 105 pounds. she went from a size 24 to a size 10. all her health issues dropped off as the 105 pounds dropped off. took 16 months.

i gave up grain and sugary products and have lost 44 pounds at age 60. i went from a size 18 to a size 10 shorts and medium tops from a 1 or 2x. took 7 months.

use a salad plate as a dinner plate

use fruit for your sweet tooth cravings, an apple works great. helps with the chewing sensation.

fill your salad plate with half vegetables.

we are both still loosing weight until we reach our goal


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