Friday, October 26, 2012
Yesterday started out like the norm, kids were being pills, dog was covered in mud AGAIN and I had to struggle to get into my routine in the morning. Yup this is my usual day and except for chasing the dog around the house with a towel, I enjoy it. I see it as added cardio on a good day. lol
I got to work and things changed, not because I was having a bad day, but because as soon as I left my house I wanted to turn around and go back. I wasn't myself yesterday, just didn't feel like good ol' Mel and it went from being a crap day to a "I just want to bury my head and sleep my life away" day.
In listening to a lot of my girlfriends talk, I got the feeling that it's been going around the circle. It's like the winter blues hit early and depression and anxiety were on the table for all of us girls! Even the female dog at work was out of sorts!
Dinner time came around and I was looking after a young girl for the evening after work, so because of this my husband and I ordered pizza. Normally my intake of pizza is limited, (I just don't enjoy it anymore) and I stay away from the wings that come with it and stick to the veggies and fruit for a snack. But last night?????? Oh last night will go down in my book of lessons learned. I had 4, count them four slices of pizza and 6 wings. I ate them and didn't think twice while I was doing it. And to top it all off, I ignored my elliptical, cast it a look of contempt, stuck my tounge out at it much like my 5 year old would and shut the door behind me. Yes quite grown up of me I know! lol.
So in being a lesson learned, I will never, and I mean never, consume that much food again in one meal especially pizza and wings. What was I thinking!?! My waist will never forgive me I'm sure and my tummy was just as angry all night.
I just had a hopeless day yesterday, a revert back into old habits I have been fighting off in the 4 weeks of weight loss I've been commited to. So from now on, mindless eating is off the table. I don't care what I have to do, no excuses are made or accepted for my behaviour last night, I will not stand, or even sit for it!!!
Today is a new leaf, I come away with more determination, more mental strength and am more mentally stable. I will chalk yesterday up as nothing more than the second personality any gemini is well aquainted with having as a temper tantrum at not getting her way. I will lock that person in the mental closet she has been living in recently and throw away the key!
My mantra, I can do it and I will do it is a song that has been going through my head all day!!!!