Friday, October 26, 2012
Okay so instead of attempting to "wish" myself into motivation again I buckled down and did whatever I could think of to get moving in the right direction. I'd been slacking, but then being sick for about 2 weeks really sent me over the edge with crappy eating and not working out.
So...I got on here and updated my status regularly with my struggles. I interacted more with my sparkfriends. I stopped holding on to the weight I had gotten down to a couple months ago (219) and decided to just own what I had gotten up to and move forward. Much easier to focus on every half lb from where I was than getting under that 219 mark. Then I buckled down on eating and tracked honestly. The first 2 days I went over by 2-300 calories each day. Then the 3rd day of tracking I went over by only 13 calories. Yesterday I had 44 calories leftover!!! I did not go over yesterday!!!! I was very proud of myself, especially since I kept feeling hungry about an hour after I'd eat every time. I stayed calm and in control, drank lots of water, and when I'd want to eat something I'd think "will it be worth the calories? will it satisfy me?" and so then I'd make smart choices about my snacks - what would really be filling and healthy. And I did it! This is the most in control I've felt in a LONG time. This is how I used to be MONTHS ago.
I started being active on here in January. Not due to any resolutions, but due to work I got on a set schedule the first week in January, then got a workout routine down, then got the food down and did awesome! The first time I messed up was Easter. Since then it's been off and on and throughout the last 10 months I've probably wasted/maintained about 5 of those months. BUT I'm about 36 lbs lighter than I was a year ago so it's a total win!! I'm not disappointed with myself anymore for where I could have been by now. (under 200 probably) Overall I'm doing awesome - much better than any other attempt at weight loss. And it's the first time I've felt myself getting more and more fit thanks to the different forms of exercise I've done. I've felt and seen muscle tone - gasp!
So anyway...those few days of buckling down got me back down to 221. I had been up around 224/225 for the last month probably. And after the wedding I went to Saturday it was up to 228 (for like a day, I knew it was mainly water weight) So anyway I'm feeling pretty happy right about now. I'm only 2 lbs away from that low that I hit of 219. I'm moving in the right direction.
I am also being drastically helped by my sparkfriends that are also getting re-motivated right around now. It's helpful to be reigniting the spark with others!
AND I've done other things I thought would be beneficial. I've reached out to people in my non spark life as well when i've been feeling stressed and overwhelmed. I haven't held it in as usual. I journaled privately. I started getting more active on the teams I've joined, and I joined a new motivation and positive attitude team and it is so awesome already. I am choosing to be positive and proud and happy and strong and in control! I am telling myself I am already all of these things, and it's working!!
So anyone who's been struggling lately, there are some ideas, some things that have helped me. come ride the positive wave or reigniting the spark with us, we'll build momentum and keep each other going!
And most importantly, don't forget: Love yourself. Be kind to yourself. Talk to yourself positively. You are awesome! You might not always feel like that, but your awesome is there deep down inside of you - start digging it out! You are stronger than you think, and any progress from the past is worth celebrating. The rest of our lives we will have days where we overate or skipped a workout. It's life. Life happens. But every day, every meal, every MINUTE we have the chance to keep going or start again, etc. Every minute we have a choice. Let's choose working hard, happiness and success!!
Have a great weekend everyone!
Hmm...I think my spark is back! LOL (and I'm not going to proofread, so hopefully there aren't too many errors!)