Thursday, October 25, 2012
Very frustrated this morning- for the 3rd time this week I did not wake myself up in time to get to the gym. Granted it was the first big snow of the year last night- 8 inches on my car! But it is so demoralizing to have it happen over and over and over. I guess I need to try something new if I really want to be successful. Maybe set an alarm in another room? Once I'm out of bed it's not a problem. I think subconsciously I also get nervous about dealing with the snow that early since I am still new to real winter conditions. Regardless...ugh :/.
The snow was still beautiful but it reminded me of how soon my benchmarks are and how little progress I've made in the past few weeks. I figured out a routine I want to start but then failed this morning to start it. I found a gym right next to work that I can get to early to get my workouts done in the morning and get to work early. I just need to do it and not give up even though every time I see my reflection I feel disheartened. I am good at beating myself up.
Today the plan was to go climb after work, but my and is still a bit messed up and I NEED more cardio to clear my head. Unfortunately I committed to meeting someone to climb and I hate breaking commitments. My boyfriend gets here tomorrow and I really don't want to feel miserable while he's here.
No free food at work today, missed on the workout this morning. Still can redeem my day if I don't let my frustration take over and lead me to eating bad foods and if I commit to getting a solid workout in tonight and tomorrow morning. I just want to feel like an athlete again & I can't stand how much I fluctuate in every way. I need to change.
I don't like being a downer! But I'm so frustrated with how I keep making the same mistakes.
Optimism for today- sitting by a fire with a loved one and feeling cozy and happy and proud to be who I am. Having great confidence going into the new year.
"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
"Always do what you are afraid to do"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
In order to overcome stagnancy I need to get used to fear and discomfort.