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Back to What Works....


Thursday, October 25, 2012

The last two days have been.... terrible. I know that what I feel - depression, hopelessness, sadness - is valid; but for some reason I am terrified of emotions. I don't know why, but I always feel the need to cover them up - with food, with sex, with performing. Those options DO NOT WORK. They temporarily mask the pain, sometimes, but in the end all I feel is failure and despair.

NO MORE. Today I am going back to what works. I will track my food. I will EXERCISE instead of zoning out with food. I will TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS. I wll NOT SHUT OUT MY FRIENDS. I give myself PERMISSION to be human and not have it all together all the time. IT IS OK TO CRY. Other will NOT feel burdened if I need to talk to them.

I GOT THIS.
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HFAYE81 10/30/2012 12:59PM

    I'm pretty sure you are channeling me the last few weeks. Today I told myself these same things.

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QUILTINGB52 10/27/2012 5:41AM

    Ah yes........validation. It's been over a year since I declared to a dear friend..."didn't you know I was an emotional over-eater?" It was finally a relief to say it out loud, as that's when the process began.....the process of "feeling my emotions" instead of eating through them.

I call on them more frequently and while I'm often not looking for help or a solution, many times I just need to get all these negative feelings out in the open. Finding something to substitute for shoving food in the pie-hole.

Seems to be working.....well, that and LOTS of self-talk!! lol

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HZGLORY 10/25/2012 5:03PM

    Rose,,

You are on the right track. Once we share our difficult feelings we find them less difficult, interesting right? I have read up on your past blogs and followed your journey quite a bit back and one thing I see over and over, you are one Very Strong lady. I think you are so used to being strong that the feelings you are talking about make you feel weak and that is so opposite of who you try to portray that makes you feel vulnerable. Hang in there, this too will pass, but you will find you are actully stronger when you share your soft underbelly. It takes a much stronger person to share those feelings that all the good ones. I know this from experience. I have always had to be strong. Noone told me to, I just had to do it. Let it all go and just breath. Lots of hugs and support for your next growing step.

Susan aka Sparkinator

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SOSIREGIME 10/25/2012 4:42PM

    Hang in there - you are so strong. I applaud your ability to recognized the power of emotions, and your wisdom in recognizing that you need to feel them, really feel them. emoticon

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AEROBISAURUS 10/25/2012 3:17PM

    The only thing that matters is that you never quit. Losing weight is not only a physical transformation it's an emotional transformation too. You have to workout ALL those feelings and go through them in order to give yourself the change you want, inside and out. Just never ever ever give up. You can do this! Xoxo

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_MOBII_ 10/25/2012 1:12PM

    I heard a phrase a long time ago that really helped me...'Your feelings are important because they are yours.'

Like you said, all of your feelings are valid, and it IS ok to have them and express them and talk about them! I don't know why we think that it is perfectly ok to express happy feelings, but not the sad ones.
I do the same thing and have to pull myself out of whatever hole I am currently hiding in, get rid of the junk food that adds to my junky feelings and find something that I enjoy and appreciate. For me, that usually means outside, even if it is just looking out the window or door...I LOVE nature!

Find something that lifts you and take a minute to just sit and appreciate it.

Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way,
Be peaceful.

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WAYSOFGRACE 10/25/2012 12:21PM

    No burden here if you want to chat. We are, after all, human.

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KATGIRL41 10/25/2012 9:37AM

    It is okay to cry. I would suggest incorporating prayer into your life as well...it works! emoticon

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MJRVIC2000 10/25/2012 8:38AM

    Learn to know yourself, to be yourself, and live the way God meant you to live. Then you will find peace, happiness, courage and strength for each new day and whatever that day may bring. God Bless YOU! Vic.

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LINDAMARIEZ1 10/25/2012 8:29AM

    You have a plan and you are in charge! go for it! You can do it I know!!!

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EVIE4NOW 10/25/2012 8:28AM

  Others shouldn't feel burdened to listen. Think of how many times you have listened to their troubles. Is what friends do best. emoticon

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