Almost Friday!! And it's been almost a month since I last blogged I know I said I'd blog daily but my schedule hasn't allowed for me to yet.. but I will. So tonight I figured I'd blog about my current state of mind.
Timing is everything. I've heard this through my whole life..but never could grasp patience and timing. But, at almost 26 years old... I'm kinda understanding it. I'm finally moved into my apartment! I can't say I'm settled or unpacked entirely, but I'm getting there. In the last month of me moving, starting a bunch of new jobs, and ... I've come to the conclusion... In the end you need to take care of yourself. No one else will. For my career path, I will eventually become a teacher, currently I take care of people in my jobs and my personal life... such as friends and family. But I've always slacked on taking care of myself. I never made it a point to because I guess I just never realized I need some TLC too. I'm so busy taking care of everyone else, trying to conquer the world over night... and instead I've gained weight (not in the last month thankfully, but over time), and live a crazy last 5 years.... I think if you can honestly start to care for yourself, then your caring for others will improve. I noticed my allergies are horrible this year, I blame the NE weather and lack of snow last year (not that I'm asking for record amounts BUT some would've been beneficial haha) but IF my eczema has been bad all year... and if we have a horrible winter I'm doomed... end of story.. time to take care of me.
SO I skipped class last night (I know not a smart decision, but in my defense I deserved it :) ), but I went to the gym for the first time in oh I can't even remember... months. I took Zumba. I'm in Zumba, doing my thing.... and I look over and there is a man middle aged literally dancing better than half the women in there and when most women were hysterical I couldn't help but smile and think oh my god how awesome, he truly is having a great time, doesn't care what anyone thinks and is getting it all out. If I was more comfortable in my skin, I totally would have gone up and danced with him because that's how I am :). BUT I can say, that that's how exercise should be.... fun, uplifting, motivating and letting it all go for that hour. One hour out of my day to myself. I have to add, I enjoyed myself so much that I did something to my back and I feel like I'm 900 years old today haha,
Today, while the little boy I watch was sleeping.. I wrote out my November and December schedule.. I literally wrote on my calender. Monday- Zumba, Wednesday- Run, Thursday- Train with Alex (who I lift weights with and I'm convinced is my therapist haha).. Saturday- Run and Sunday- (every other weekend nights due to work )Yoga.. and this may silly to some but if I look at my calender the night before i know what I have to accomplish that day and what I need to leave my house with to ensure a successful day.
SO I'll leave you with this... it has taken me 13 years, countless diets, but I've finally understanding it's timing.. one must truly be ready to change in order to change.
Enjoy your weekend! :)